31st December 2008....

tmr shall be 1st January 2009...
which gonna be a year full of ????
i bet there will be lots of extra lessons...focus study...
and followed by O level....=.=

i duno how m i gonna spend my 2009....
but i hope i would be able to spend it wisely?? not to waste anytime anymore? O.o

some new year resolutions that i've in my mind currently:
1)to have a new beginning at the start of 2009
2)able to get at least an "A2" for chi O'lvl
3)NA would be able to do better...
4)NA able to win the "gamble"
5)achieved "7"
6)to cry lesser...=x
7)to do better in studies...
8)concentrate better...
9)score well for O level...


currently thats all?
will add on if i could thought of anymore..=D

Commander in a manly voice : "No3 report the situation over there"
No3 : "report report....."
Commander girly voice : "AHHHH!!"

last training of the year...and it is at hq...
footdrill and fa whole day...

and when we were doing the last case...
a lizard crawl onto my leg! =.=
and i just jumped up and "Ahh!!"
and they was like LOL..
den zx told me tt she was shocked by me...coz i was asking her to report....den suddenly i went shouting like mad...=x
and i started crying n laughing on the spot..=x

i know nid to leave a very memorable experience in the hq for the year...
but no need like tt de mah!! =x

fun fun day today! Lol...

slept at 3am++ ytd den woke up at ard 8am+...
coz was woken up by papa's call..=.=
used comp. a while den prepared for meeting...

was looking thru the photos on the forms in the in file..
some looked really cute...while some was LOL...haha
weihao was laughing the loudest in the library lo...so ps...=p hehe....

went to cwp at ard 12.30pm++...acc yishen and annie to eat their lunch while we watched the footdrill video...=x
den sat at some place to wait for 2.30pm to come...LOL
and saw szehui also...haha

den ben cp and tiff came...
and it was Sushi time! haha
saw patricia at sakae also...LOL..
makan makan...
ate from 3+ to ard 5+...
den started gossiping with each other...
and i was "sprite"...zx was some small container..
den wh was tt bowl of "disgusting stuffs"...=x
den the cans, container,cups and plates started to do footdrill...=x

haha...den went to mac..coz they wanted to eat ice-cream...
and cp can really eat...O.o

wh..go study for o'lvl...byebye..=p

1am++ le...O.o..
had bbq just now..
reached home at ard 12am?=x...
thank you mama for waiting for me..=)

this morning went to m'sia with papa to pray...
the journey was scary dao~~~
and the new checkpoint was like..=.=
is like..u are alrdy in m'sia....yet still nid to travel a long a distance to the checkpoint..=.=

den went home...
prepared...and cynthia n ellis came to my hse to help me carry stuffs to vista park for bbq..=)
thanks!=D
bbq was fun!
but the clearing up was tiring..=.=
chatted with hazel n yin zhi after we had cleared the area...
was counting how days left to comp..=.=


75 days...
minus of 2 weeks of common tests..
den still gt new year..
one week oni can train ard twice? O.o..
omg!

haix haix haix...
i also duno what to say...=.=...



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tmr bbq! =p

*yawn*...
today was the last comp. training in sch....

did a total of ??? rounds of footdrill
den 6 fa cases...
3 hn case...

o.O...

i even fell asleep while waiting for dinner to be ready...=.=

finally finished calling and informing the instructors liao..O.o..
and i find my tone abit weird weird de...=x
but never de mind..=p

just now went to woodlands centre to buy sch shoes with papa
den come back...went out to cwp alone...
bought files...and i bought x'mas prezzie...heh..=p

Merry Christmas ppl!

currently i have a few wishes in my mind..
which are:
1)everyone to stay happy and merry
2)stay healthy
3)to see "hope"
4)comp. teams must jy!
5)able to achieve gold!
6)US and UJ lasts long!
7)Happy Family??

until now is these few only...=x

btw...ytd i went to send sms to 933fm...
and the DJ read my msg out! yeah!
hope they managed to hear it! haha

for those who want to know what msg i sent out...
here it is.. =)

to all who know me, and riverside sjab!
Merry X'mas! Comp. teams jiayou!
Champion go go go!

haha

whee~has been getting hello kitty stuffs these 2 days..=p
ytd...patricia gave me the hello kitty bag...
den today er jie gave me the hello kitty thingy...which can move front and back de..=x
also got one handphone strap..also hello kitty de..=p

currently searching for hello kitty toy....those big big de...=x

just nw went to gugu's hse to eat dinner....

and also got presents from biao jie..

and i got a chinese bk...which is abt prayers de? stuffs on jesus?

i duno if i will read tt bk anot?

and if i give my sis...i think she will doze off halfway while reading the bk? O.o LOL...

btw..Merry Christmas everyone! =D

hmm..
ytd was activity...
had zone induction test....saw alot of blanks wor?
den ogl training...

today...comp. training...till 12pm today...=.=
seriously...i dun see any hope in it...

den ogl training..
and they can really eat...my pringles went *poof* in a short while..=x...

thank you patricia for the hello kitty bag! =)

seriously...im really glad tt...........
there's ppl around me who "dote" on me...or rather concern about me...
esp. the seniors...=)

it is alrdy 20th of dec...
which means less than 2 weeks time...sch gonna start soon...
yet i have not even started on any homework yet! =.=

i duno why....
suddenly..i lost confidence in myself.
nothing seems to be going on successfully?
it just 2 months++ away...or rather 70++ days to comp....
yet i duno whether are we improving or even deproving?
was talking to sumo and cp last few days about our trainings...

im not very sure whether are we just thinking too much or issit becoz of other stuffs? O.o
in terms of first aid and footdrill...we can actually see whether are we improving or have we made any mistakes...
then for homenursing, whenever we do case...it's a repeat of everything over and over again?
like what cp say...going for comp....it is just like gambling..it is whether a win or a lose.
for fa n footdrill..we know what we are betting on....and we know what's the end results..whether issit gd or bad...
instead for homenursing...we are basically betting everything on it...and we will never know whether issit a win or a lose...
i really duno how...

after going for 2 years...actually im basically numb....
i mentioned before in my previous post tt i cried during footdrill on friday's training
den during lunch break..i actually wrote a "long" chinese essay.....
basically it is just how i felt la..

seriously..im not sure whether after i posted the "essay"...will it demoralise the rest of the NA anot...but i've to apologise for tt...

i alrdy have not much energy to carry on anymore...problems and issues seems to be approaching non-stop....and i simply does not know how to handle with it....
i've lost confidence in myself...im not sure whether are we able to win this time round anot...
it is not tt i have no confidence in my NA....is just tt im really scared of it....or rather there's alrdy a phobia in me...i've total..100% confidence in my NA...is just tt i've lost trust in myself...
with the history repeating itself for the second time this year...i really cant imagine what would happen next year....

Will i smile/laugh IF we really WON?
Will i cry IF we really WON?
How would i react on that day IF we STILL LOST again?
these are the questions which always popped up in my mind these few days...

im just feeling very tired...
everyday just simply passed day by day...just with a blink of eyes
i just cant b bothered to think of other stuffs anymore...

sometimes...when im really frustrated...i asked myself some questions:
what is the reason that made me to go for comp.??
for the trophies? CAA?
really..these questions really popped up in my mind...
im still not very sure whether if we are still able to achieved a GOLD?
we might instead gotten a SILVER just because of 1 or 2 marks?
i've alrdy gone mad with just filling up the forms...
i duno how am i gonna continue on?

after posting so much stuffs....ppl might think that im just being emo...or whatsoever....
by all means...go ahead...i wun stop u....
it is my blog..im free to type and post anything i wish...
im just typing out my thoughts...

had admin meeting at rp just nw...
their reaction was like..O.o when they saw the light blue file...
very "scary" meh? =x

left my thumbdrive at home...so rushed back home to take..=.=
talk talk talk...den walked to interchange to take bus..
on the way walking was very "fun" lor..=p...
i was like laughing like...=p
den wh's expression was so funny when he count down 10 secs...=x
but i was telling the TRUTH liao lo! =p
haha



den i dun understand why does someone has so many comments on it, while does no actions from you ?
i dun find anything wrong with the end product...
it is perfectly alright?
instead of nagging yet standing there doing nothing....u might as well contribute ideas, but hold on..it shld b constructive enough...not nonsense...

it is rather irritating for ppl to listen to ur "nagging"....when it does not make sense in anywhere..
if u think u are so capable...u shall come out with one yourself instead? O.o
just for ur information...u are going a little too overboard..

he might be neutral in front of you...but what he is doing...it is just to give you face...
pls know where u stand....and dun go across the line...there's a limit to everything...
everyone has their own tolerance limit...

bad day today...
broke down while doing footdrill in the morning...
couldn't take it anymore and went to a corner and started crying..=.=
and i wrote a even long essay this time..=.=

was feeling really tired lo...
not physically yet mentally..=.=

and i totally forgotten that there's admin meeting tmr..
i only remembered in the morning while i was walking to sch..=.=

today activity...
and miss ong's b'day celebration...but my plan didnt managed to carry out successfully....LOL...
chocolate cake! =x...

den stayed behind after activity...
emo-ed while...wrote chinese essay..=x
ate lunch...den gossiped alot...LOL..
1st main lead and 2nd main lead? haha
the 2nd male main lead and female main lead is the most funniest one...haha...

tmr training....

monday was meeting..
tuesday was training...
and today was also training..
tmr activity...
the day after tmr got training...

still got a long way to go! jy ppl!

Happy Birthday Miss Ong!

it has been a long time ever since i had such a wide smile on my face...

i wonder when would be the next time i would be able to experience it again...

i hope it would happened...when we achieved the "7"

wooo..
today went out with mama n er jie...

den after tt er jie went off...
went shopping with mama at cwp....
saw patricia at metro...

bought stuffs at john little...
and i bought a little miss de bottle...and is pink!! =p

WARNING:this post will very a very LONG post...filled with pictures and video...=p
as promised..i shall post the outing pics..=D

Sentosa...our destination for the day..=D

the seniors group...group name not decided yet...

let's take a stroll to the beach!!

left left left right~~`

say cheese~~

thahira: ouch! why cuiping punch me!

let me present to you the models of our St. John magazine, which

would be featured on the magazine's cover page...woo~~

say Hiii!!

Hanis..fast fast tell us what are we gonna do for the day!!

listen carefully....

you! shall be in my group! and you! shall be in the other group!

featuring group 2!

the "old people" group!

group 1!

mdm fang n miss ong..=D

what should we have for our group name? anything?

shall we call ourselves "whatever"?

they've changed their mind..and decided to be 'shanghai tour group"
instead..=D

preparing for treasure hunt...

group 2 has named themselves"Monkey Goes Banana"!!

group 1 called themselves "Something"!

after they had taken the stairs up to "shanghai" and had some

"kueh" for tea break, they changed name to "Nyonyas and Babas"

yeah! our food is here!

whoosh!!

benjamin...faster start treasure hunt leh!

where is the "treasure"?! under the sea??!

dig dig dig...in the sand??

under the tree?

in the shade?

omg! where is it!!

still cannot find the treasure...but i found part of patricia's name!?

in the end...treasure couldn't be found.. =(

we shall play...Name it Ball? or Elephant?

elephant? why is your nose so long? O.o

why uh?

ellis n cynthia...what are you all doing there? O.o

who is that in the dark?? hanis? thahira?

water bombs! filled with sea water...=.=

beach!!

can we jump into the sea?? O.o

hit me?! oh no! run!

mr weihao and mr fizzy...and little miss patricia...=p

sumo...the nyonya?? O.o

yeah...i've just hit benjamin with the water bombs!

oh no! what are you trying to do? throw at me?! *run*

come bah! go ahead and throw at me..im mentally prepared...>.<

i love this tree

i love the tree too~~

oh no!

zhenghui&yekai: heh..let's aim at aisyah!!
aisyah: nobody behind me? i shall throw at benjamin instead!

who should i throw at??

pose!

don't so evil leh..

angie! what happened to you!

*clap clap*

LOL

lalalala~

Yummmmmmmm Seng!!!

Nyonya and Baba

Everybody Makan!

Welcome to Sentosa!

NA'08 gather!!

NA RE-gather...

AA'08 with "yeexuan" gather!

NC'08 gather!

US and UJ

Zhixian.."Yeexuan" and Fizzy....=.=

say cheeseeee~~

hooray!!

Friendship dance...in water...O.o

i spent 2hr++ to upload these pics...the time now is 9.08pm...=.=