RSS camp has ended...
and this camp might be the last corps camp that I will be involved in the planning..
many things that happened throughout these 2 years... and what happened during the camp was just one of the factors that made me broke down...and made the decision
I don't blame anyone or anything for what has happened.... nobody is at fault...
it maybe due to the reason that the environment and the culture is no longer "suitable" for me to stay on.. or perhaps myself being unable to adapt to the situation could be the main reason...
No matter what.... I still thank RSS SJAB for giving me the opportunity to learn and also lead the cadets.. and seeing batches of cadets passing out every year...I would feel a sense of satisfaction...even though I may not be directly involved in their learning process but still... I would still like to say THANK YOU
and of course RSS SJAB for who am I now...without them... I would not have the opportunity to be the OIC of RSS SJAB for these 2 years... which I really treasure it...
not forgetting the friendship and bonds that was formed during my 8 years in RSS SJAB.. from Sec 1 till now
of course not forgetting my batch mates.. though we may not be as close to each other.. we may have conflicts
it is fate that brings us together...to work together... to play together...
WELCOME TO MY LIFE is the song that we first sung together as a batch.. which was during the farewell party of the Sec 4s & 5s of 2006.
and also the juniors...which I treated them like my own little brothers and sisters... which I really wanted to take care of them...but then there's only "so much" that I can do for them.
I will always address those cadets as my kids whenever I am with my other officers and friends...which I really treated them like my own...
the amazing feeling that I have whenever I go for their farewell party is that "They were only just Sec 1s when they just joined us... saying they want to change cca...want to quit st john....
now they are already Sec 4s/5 already...held different roles... now they are the big sisters and brothers" is like "wah~~" the unexplainable feeling I have...
especially the 2009 batch of Sec 1s... I'm already Sec 4 when they first came in....and I didn't really had the chance to teach them or talk to them during activities... but I just felt very attached to them
I wouldn't want them to get scolded...or get punished...I just want to protect them...
Felt extremely touched when they came for the camp this year...helped me with triage...and running of the camp..(even though we spent most of the time playing in the bunk =p )
Esp. when they made an effort to come for the camp in Full Uniform, and even went to buy new uniform parts.
They helped me in handling the situation when I really felt very demoralised over what happened the night before... they know when I needed help the most....and they will lend their helping hand to me...
which I really appreciate them for the help....
Even though we are of 3 years difference...but I find no difficulties in communicating and playing with them... instead I really felt like I'm of their age when I mingle with them... I can throw away all my troubles...and really let my hair down...
I find no barriers in sharing my problems with them... even though they didn't say anything...but I can feel that they can understand where I'm coming from...
They are the group of people whom we can have fun together...laugh together... play together... eat together... joke together... and also the people whom I can trust....and cry in front of them(LOL!)
I will definitely treasure this bond between us....
Of course not forgetting Gavin...THANK YOU for guiding me throughout my Officership.. Esp. when it comes to Corps matters...you indeed helped me a lot in solving issues and problems...
RSS SJAB wouldn't have come so far without your guidance.
And also the Teachers... I would say that it has been a really good experience working with you all...
I really learnt many things from you all.. be it SJ matters... or school matters.. I really benefitted a lot.
THANK YOU Ms Teo for being my big sister during these 4 years... I would say I did enjoy the time that we worked together.. and sometimes I really cant helped laughing at your funny comments/complaints. I did learnt a lot during my time in RSS SJAB... and without RSS SJAB..
I will not be what I am now... RSS SJAB did play a very big role in my life..
RSS SJAB...THANK YOU for leaving good memories with me in my SJ journey
I will always remember you...the people...and everything
I really APPRECIATE and THANKFUL for what I have now.