Home is not like to home to me now...

Kayden is not even 2 months old and everything is like chaos...
every now and then is like on standby...coz anytime a war could just like break out even over minor stuffs

up till now it's not even 3 months...worse to say to wait for another 3 years..
everyone in the house will get depression seriously...

i feel that i can no longer return home feeling relaxed..and be myself even at home...
i still have to put on a mask....not even when im in my own house...

when will all these things end!!

it has been long since i last posted a proper blog post...

14th april... lil kayden came to the world...
papa and mama became ahgong and ahma...
erjie and i became ahyi~

at least there's something for me to look forward to whenever i come home from school...
is to play with kayden!!

i felt so accomplished when i managed to carry kayden when i did not dare to do so cause baby are so soft~~
but whenever i carried him...and he looked at me into my eyes... (Y)
the feeling is... ^^
and up till now.. i managed to feed him for twice alrdy!

cant wait for him to be able to see clearly.. and can crawl... that would be so fun!! (Y)


week 6 already.. and next week would be mst already...
then followed by 3 weeks hols... term 2....
actually i do look forward to internship though...

which means that i'm completing my poly studies soon!!

the last time i posted was about the arrival of little kayden~
now...he's one month old already!!!

Baby Kayden is born on 14th April!!

Benedict's batch farewell just now~
it has been the 3rd farewell i've attended since my batch's farewell...

i guess i'll really miss them... maybe is because im the youngest in the family..so i treated them as my own xiaodidi and xiaomeimei
i also don't understand why... I just got a special feeling for all of them~
whereby i feel that i'll tend to dote them more...

of course i would hope that they would come back after their o'levels.. but still if they are not willing, of course i wouldnt force them...

all the best to them! =)))

I'm so proud of them!!

AA-Champion!
AC-2nd!
NC-3rd!

currently at hq... preparing for zone comp later...

dont know why am i exceptionally excited/nervous this time...
it has be the 3rd year im training teams, or maybe becoz of the number 3~ LOL

比賽不是比誰比較厲害,反而它就像是考試一樣, 看看你到底學會了多少...
this was what he said to the teams this morning...
and i really find it reasonable...

but then i seriously hope that the teams would not get too complacent...
i afraid... the higher the expectations, the more the disappointment
i dont wish they would experience the same thing... as it was not a very good feeling...

really hoping that everything will go on smoothly for them and us later on...


and im feeling hungry now~

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2 weeks into holiday..

Mostly spent on sj..

Is not that it's a very boring or ??? Just now it seems that I just lack of the 'push' to do things..

Perhaps is becoz after this year.. Everything will be different.. Totally different.. Not to say slight change..

Went for meeting last sat.. They mentioned abt riverside being a 'powerful' corps.. Yes I do agree to a certain extent.. Becoz for the past few years we've got 'manpower'

But I wonder what would happen after this year? Or rather after comp..

I guess our legacy would have to come to a end sooner or later..

No need to wait till the time when it's in their turn.. I guess..it might just fall in my hands..

I just hope that AA would consider coming back after their Os...

If not I think..i might take the step which I dont wish to do so at all..

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exam is over!! (Y)
here comes holiday!

this also means coming to an end of year 2....

this holiday....i'll try to do as much as possible..other than sj...(i hope so)

will things go as planned? hope so?

one week of tests has finally ended~
2 more weeks~ 2 more paper...
and im done with year 2!

and here comes holiday!
at least i can have the free time to do something i like...

this holiday...
-baking
-cooking
-maybe cross stitch?

it's CNY!!
haha...i think it's a little too late uh.. but still it's still the 11th day of CNY mah.. still can collect angbao~ hehehe

1st 2 days was as usual...

1st day went gugu house...

wore the same colour with erjie this year... LOL

and both my 小宝贝 also wore the same colour too! ^^

2nd day went ahma house...

wore the same colour with erjie also...

but erjie and mama wore the same blouse...but different colour.. lol

五姨 and 二姨丈 was asking me how old am i this year...

then i said 19....

they said cannot say 19! must say 18! every year 18 mah! HAHAHA!

hmm... this cny was better then what i've expected?

hope this dragon year would be a good one... O.o

HUAT AH!

felt like blogging... but i dont know what to post about...=.=

1st 3 weeks of 2012~
so far so good?
at least for this month...there's something for me to look forward to or rather something for me to do at the end of the week...

7th Jan.... ANCOC 2011 POP at hq...
seeing those kids passing out from the course...
seriously speaking... didnt really have any special feelings though...
even though i felt more attached to Sierra'11 as compared to Alpha'10, my heart still goes towards Alpha'10 leh... haha
perhaps they were my first grp of kids that i took when i first joined ANCOC bah? haha
but Sierra'11 is cuter la... haha
at least from this course... got ah boy and boyboy.... AHAHAHA
not only those kids... this course was really a gd opportunity to get to know the other G6....LOL
like wita..jierui... if w/o them... i can imagine how "lonely" i would be during the whole course.. HAHAHA

14th Jan... COC at BP

nothing much though..
Eric Sir step down...Jerry Sir take over...
O.o
wonder what are the changes gonna be?

this week... looking forward to CNY! hehehe!

28th Jan...AGM...
a new start for RSS..
hope this year wont be that BAD~ for us.... *fingers cross*

2nd week since school start...

hope everything will be fine for this year?

didnt really set any resolutions for this year...just hope that things will go on smoothly

i was thinking whether shld i do up a summary for 2011 just like what i did for 2o10.... O.o

what i can say is... 2011 就这样过去了~

another few minutes...it's gonna be the last day of 2011....and it gonna be 2012...

frankly speaking...im rather looking forward to 2012..hope that it can also just phew~ and it's 2013 already...><
partly is because i'll be having 6 months internship =.= for the next half of the year...which i wished it will be over fast fast...=x

what i wish for is 2012 can be a good one for everyone...at least for me in studies wise...
but i doubt it will be good one at home...which i've to "endure" for the next 3 years...=.=

MST ended... which means holiday!!

also at the same time... ANCOC 2011 also ended ytd..

frankly speaking, as compared to last year.. i felt more attached to this year's Sierra as compared to last year's Alpha...
I also don't understand why...
if i were to compare the amount of time spent with them, i spent more time with Alpha '10 than Sierra'11... O.o
nevertheless, it has come to an end...
it was a new experience anyway...

during this course... i made new friends... and at the same time.. i ALMOST lose a friend too...
which really sort of letting me think through about what has happened
this course made me reflects on many things...

it also made realised...what i really want...

3 more weeks to 2012...
gonna do up my 2011 summary soon

hope it will be a good year ahead?

好久没来这里了....

week 6 alrdy.... and one more week is gonna be mst alrdy...O.o
which is also ancoc camp also...
gonna study during camp once again...=.=

shall post again after mst... if not jiu end of year alrdy... O.o

went for kl study trip last thursday and friday...
still ok la... the night part at hotel room was rather fun uh... LOL...

ANCO briefing day last sat...
hope it will be better this coming sat uh? O.o

2nd week of sch...
den going for KL study trip this thursday and friday... hope it will be fun uh...

whatever will be will be

i dont know what happened to me just now...
i've actually argued with my mum about them...till the extent that i started crying...
perhaps is because i drank abit just now.. after effects uh?

i just dont understand why my parents doesnt seems to be affected by all these things that are happening in the family?!
how and why can they just accept everything...like take and go?
she is my sister! your DAUGHTER!
maybe im just being too sensitive la...but still...

they obviously does not know what they actually want?!
even up till now...
pls la..like any other girls..dont u wish to have a nice and grand wedding?
at least presentable la...
no bride car...u also can accept...
might as well take bus go get married la!
pls la...it's one of the most important day of ur life leh...dont u wish to have a really nice one?

it's not like i trying to say bad things about them...
but still..if these little things cant be achieved, how can we expect us to trust or believe that he will give u happiness
if all these things u cant provide...how can u guarantee the rest in the future!?
how are we gonna trust u in that!?

i just cannot accept that up till now...2 weeks away from the day...
everything i saw was what was done from my family...my mum...
what about u?

seriously... from then till now...barely more than half a year...
perhaps it's my own perception and opinion O.o
but still..... i dont know what i can do now...

went to visit ahma on monday... and ahma can go home le!! ^^
waited very long for the medicine before we can actually go off~

looking at the amount of medicine that ahma has to take... one whole bag!
heart pain siah~ =(
hope ahma will be fine very soon...

阿嬷! 我爱你!