Home is not like to home to me now...

Kayden is not even 2 months old and everything is like chaos...
every now and then is like on standby...coz anytime a war could just like break out even over minor stuffs

up till now it's not even 3 months...worse to say to wait for another 3 years..
everyone in the house will get depression seriously...

i feel that i can no longer return home feeling relaxed..and be myself even at home...
i still have to put on a mask....not even when im in my own house...

when will all these things end!!