But no matter what.... I just want to let you know that I hasn't let go yet
Still hoping for a chance... even though it's just a teeny weeny
Wednesday, January 01, 2014
Year 2013
It has really a fruitful 2013 for me...and really eventful
Esp. for sjab, where I really got to try out different projects and event
Started my 2013 with internship...and ended in early feb
Had NCO Course POP as my first event of the year
Then followed by CNY Charity project
Then for rss sjab...had homecoming for the alumni...which we managed to get back most of the alumnus and teachers back
It has been a great year for rss sjab!
We attained champion for NC, AC and AA in zone comp
And they managed to have good results from national comp!
ESP for nc which we got 1st for home nursing and 3rd overall!!
Really proud of them!
But I'll be leaving them after this year....so as Ms Teo...will definitely miss her lot
At least it has left a beautiful ending and memories for us =)
Graduated from SP...
Had a long 6 months break...
And worked part time at polyclinic before I went back to ascendas
Nco course...which is definitely a new experience for me
Which makes me really reflects a lot on myself
And make me realized...what do I exactly want from myself... Self actualization
Had quite a few meet ups with the 大朋友 and 小朋友们 these 2 months
And Jamie Chong also back from Australia already...
Time flies!!
Happy new year!!
Esp. for sjab, where I really got to try out different projects and event
Started my 2013 with internship...and ended in early feb
Had NCO Course POP as my first event of the year
Then followed by CNY Charity project
Then for rss sjab...had homecoming for the alumni...which we managed to get back most of the alumnus and teachers back
It has been a great year for rss sjab!
We attained champion for NC, AC and AA in zone comp
And they managed to have good results from national comp!
ESP for nc which we got 1st for home nursing and 3rd overall!!
Really proud of them!
But I'll be leaving them after this year....so as Ms Teo...will definitely miss her lot
At least it has left a beautiful ending and memories for us =)
Graduated from SP...
Had a long 6 months break...
And worked part time at polyclinic before I went back to ascendas
Nco course...which is definitely a new experience for me
Which makes me really reflects a lot on myself
And make me realized...what do I exactly want from myself... Self actualization
Had quite a few meet ups with the 大朋友 and 小朋友们 these 2 months
And Jamie Chong also back from Australia already...
Time flies!!
Happy new year!!
Tuesday, July 16, 2013
Nat Comp 2013, a Beautiful Ending
Sunday was their Nat. Comp...and they did extremely well!!!
Really feel so proud of them and they indeed proved to us that they are the BEST!!!
AA 8
1st in Footdrill
3rd in First Aid Long Case
Overall 3rd!!!
AC 8
3rd in Footdrill!!!
NC 10
1st in Home Nursing
1st in Footdrill
Overall 3rd!!!
Super happy with NC results....as I really didn't expect them to get 1st for Home Nursing...I don't dare to pin such high hopes on that as I don't want them to be stressed up and partly so that won't be so disappointed
While waiting for their home nursing case, was telling Wenjun that actually I really hoped that NC could get something back for Home Nursing...one of the reasons was because to compensate my regrets for not being able to go for Nat. Comp due to H1N1 four years back.. And THEY DID IT!!
Can't believe it when they announced that we got 1st in Home Nursing and I started screaming and tearing like dunno what... 😁
And we met our goal!! To get something back for footdrill!!
Thank you NC!!! Now...I would have no regrets anymore...
Not forgetting AA and AC, you all did really well also!! Even though I wasn't directly involved in your trainings...no matter what...thank you very much for letting me to be a part of this big family...
I really appreciate it!!!
The feeling that I have when the teams were going into the waiting room in the morning was that...'it might gonna be their last time... And also mine too'
Don't know to feel happy or sad at that point of time...just wished that time will past by faster...all of them to be able to learn something from the comp.
Now that everything has ended...the teams will have to go back to focus on their studies...instructors also...we will be seeing one another lesser.... The feeling was....is everything going to end just like that?
No matter what... RSS SJAB!!! We are the best!!!
Thursday, June 20, 2013
RSS SJAB
RSS camp has ended...
and this camp might be the last corps camp that I will be involved in the planning..
many things that happened throughout these 2 years... and what happened during the camp was just one of the factors that made me broke down...and made the decision
I don't blame anyone or anything for what has happened.... nobody is at fault...
it maybe due to the reason that the environment and the culture is no longer "suitable" for me to stay on.. or perhaps myself being unable to adapt to the situation could be the main reason...
No matter what.... I still thank RSS SJAB for giving me the opportunity to learn and also lead the cadets.. and seeing batches of cadets passing out every year...I would feel a sense of satisfaction...even though I may not be directly involved in their learning process but still... I would still like to say THANK YOU
and of course RSS SJAB for who am I now...without them... I would not have the opportunity to be the OIC of RSS SJAB for these 2 years... which I really treasure it...
not forgetting the friendship and bonds that was formed during my 8 years in RSS SJAB.. from Sec 1 till now
of course not forgetting my batch mates.. though we may not be as close to each other.. we may have conflicts
it is fate that brings us together...to work together... to play together...
WELCOME TO MY LIFE is the song that we first sung together as a batch.. which was during the farewell party of the Sec 4s & 5s of 2006.
and also the juniors...which I treated them like my own little brothers and sisters... which I really wanted to take care of them...but then there's only "so much" that I can do for them.
I will always address those cadets as my kids whenever I am with my other officers and friends...which I really treated them like my own...
the amazing feeling that I have whenever I go for their farewell party is that "They were only just Sec 1s when they just joined us... saying they want to change cca...want to quit st john....
now they are already Sec 4s/5 already...held different roles... now they are the big sisters and brothers" is like "wah~~" the unexplainable feeling I have...
especially the 2009 batch of Sec 1s... I'm already Sec 4 when they first came in....and I didn't really had the chance to teach them or talk to them during activities... but I just felt very attached to them
I wouldn't want them to get scolded...or get punished...I just want to protect them...
Felt extremely touched when they came for the camp this year...helped me with triage...and running of the camp..(even though we spent most of the time playing in the bunk =p )
Esp. when they made an effort to come for the camp in Full Uniform, and even went to buy new uniform parts.
They helped me in handling the situation when I really felt very demoralised over what happened the night before... they know when I needed help the most....and they will lend their helping hand to me...
which I really appreciate them for the help....
Even though we are of 3 years difference...but I find no difficulties in communicating and playing with them... instead I really felt like I'm of their age when I mingle with them... I can throw away all my troubles...and really let my hair down...
I find no barriers in sharing my problems with them... even though they didn't say anything...but I can feel that they can understand where I'm coming from...
They are the group of people whom we can have fun together...laugh together... play together... eat together... joke together... and also the people whom I can trust....and cry in front of them(LOL!)
I will definitely treasure this bond between us....
Of course not forgetting Gavin...THANK YOU for guiding me throughout my Officership.. Esp. when it comes to Corps matters...you indeed helped me a lot in solving issues and problems...
RSS SJAB wouldn't have come so far without your guidance.
And also the Teachers... I would say that it has been a really good experience working with you all...
I really learnt many things from you all.. be it SJ matters... or school matters.. I really benefitted a lot.
THANK YOU Ms Teo for being my big sister during these 4 years... I would say I did enjoy the time that we worked together.. and sometimes I really cant helped laughing at your funny comments/complaints. I did learnt a lot during my time in RSS SJAB... and without RSS SJAB..
I will not be what I am now... RSS SJAB did play a very big role in my life..
RSS SJAB...THANK YOU for leaving good memories with me in my SJ journey
I will always remember you...the people...and everything
I really APPRECIATE and THANKFUL for what I have now.
and this camp might be the last corps camp that I will be involved in the planning..
many things that happened throughout these 2 years... and what happened during the camp was just one of the factors that made me broke down...and made the decision
I don't blame anyone or anything for what has happened.... nobody is at fault...
it maybe due to the reason that the environment and the culture is no longer "suitable" for me to stay on.. or perhaps myself being unable to adapt to the situation could be the main reason...
No matter what.... I still thank RSS SJAB for giving me the opportunity to learn and also lead the cadets.. and seeing batches of cadets passing out every year...I would feel a sense of satisfaction...even though I may not be directly involved in their learning process but still... I would still like to say THANK YOU
and of course RSS SJAB for who am I now...without them... I would not have the opportunity to be the OIC of RSS SJAB for these 2 years... which I really treasure it...
not forgetting the friendship and bonds that was formed during my 8 years in RSS SJAB.. from Sec 1 till now
of course not forgetting my batch mates.. though we may not be as close to each other.. we may have conflicts
it is fate that brings us together...to work together... to play together...
WELCOME TO MY LIFE is the song that we first sung together as a batch.. which was during the farewell party of the Sec 4s & 5s of 2006.
and also the juniors...which I treated them like my own little brothers and sisters... which I really wanted to take care of them...but then there's only "so much" that I can do for them.
I will always address those cadets as my kids whenever I am with my other officers and friends...which I really treated them like my own...
the amazing feeling that I have whenever I go for their farewell party is that "They were only just Sec 1s when they just joined us... saying they want to change cca...want to quit st john....
now they are already Sec 4s/5 already...held different roles... now they are the big sisters and brothers" is like "wah~~" the unexplainable feeling I have...
especially the 2009 batch of Sec 1s... I'm already Sec 4 when they first came in....and I didn't really had the chance to teach them or talk to them during activities... but I just felt very attached to them
I wouldn't want them to get scolded...or get punished...I just want to protect them...
Felt extremely touched when they came for the camp this year...helped me with triage...and running of the camp..(even though we spent most of the time playing in the bunk =p )
Esp. when they made an effort to come for the camp in Full Uniform, and even went to buy new uniform parts.
They helped me in handling the situation when I really felt very demoralised over what happened the night before... they know when I needed help the most....and they will lend their helping hand to me...
which I really appreciate them for the help....
Even though we are of 3 years difference...but I find no difficulties in communicating and playing with them... instead I really felt like I'm of their age when I mingle with them... I can throw away all my troubles...and really let my hair down...
I find no barriers in sharing my problems with them... even though they didn't say anything...but I can feel that they can understand where I'm coming from...
They are the group of people whom we can have fun together...laugh together... play together... eat together... joke together... and also the people whom I can trust....and cry in front of them(LOL!)
I will definitely treasure this bond between us....
Of course not forgetting Gavin...THANK YOU for guiding me throughout my Officership.. Esp. when it comes to Corps matters...you indeed helped me a lot in solving issues and problems...
RSS SJAB wouldn't have come so far without your guidance.
And also the Teachers... I would say that it has been a really good experience working with you all...
I really learnt many things from you all.. be it SJ matters... or school matters.. I really benefitted a lot.
THANK YOU Ms Teo for being my big sister during these 4 years... I would say I did enjoy the time that we worked together.. and sometimes I really cant helped laughing at your funny comments/complaints. I did learnt a lot during my time in RSS SJAB... and without RSS SJAB..
I will not be what I am now... RSS SJAB did play a very big role in my life..
RSS SJAB...THANK YOU for leaving good memories with me in my SJ journey
I will always remember you...the people...and everything
I really APPRECIATE and THANKFUL for what I have now.
Friday, April 05, 2013
2 months since my internship ended.... Has been spending time at home with mama taking care of ah boy... And also Sjab.... Going down for activity....
Whenever I go for cca, I really felt meaningless....really... It feel as if that I'm going down for the sake of doing it.... No longer see the purpose anymore...
However, after the recent issue... Which I had the chance to have 'heart to heart' talk with them.. I felt that I've the responsibility to teach them how to handle face challenges... I NEED and I CAN play a part to guide them
They all have the capability.... They have the 心 and hope for the best of the corps...and they want the cadets to learn as much as possible... Is just that they would need to learn how to adapt to changes and play by the ear.... As things does not always go with their way all the time... At times, we would need to learn to overcome obstacles
POP for the sec 4s next week.... We haven't had such Passing out parade for the graduating seniors before.... And not to mention about the handing over parade that we had last year... Hopefully all these new initiatives can continue on to the next few batches...and of course new ideas are definitely welcomed!
The 4th farewell party I'm going to attend ever since I graduated.... 4th batch of cadets I've seen them from Sec 1 all the way to Sec 4.... Some even Sec 5....
Though some I've not personally taught them.... It feel as if my group of kids have grown up.... And embarking on their next phase of life.... At least I've tried and managed to be part of their journey.. Even it's just a tiny weeny part.... At least I know I've tried
Whenever I go for cca, I really felt meaningless....really... It feel as if that I'm going down for the sake of doing it.... No longer see the purpose anymore...
However, after the recent issue... Which I had the chance to have 'heart to heart' talk with them.. I felt that I've the responsibility to teach them how to handle face challenges... I NEED and I CAN play a part to guide them
They all have the capability.... They have the 心 and hope for the best of the corps...and they want the cadets to learn as much as possible... Is just that they would need to learn how to adapt to changes and play by the ear.... As things does not always go with their way all the time... At times, we would need to learn to overcome obstacles
POP for the sec 4s next week.... We haven't had such Passing out parade for the graduating seniors before.... And not to mention about the handing over parade that we had last year... Hopefully all these new initiatives can continue on to the next few batches...and of course new ideas are definitely welcomed!
The 4th farewell party I'm going to attend ever since I graduated.... 4th batch of cadets I've seen them from Sec 1 all the way to Sec 4.... Some even Sec 5....
Though some I've not personally taught them.... It feel as if my group of kids have grown up.... And embarking on their next phase of life.... At least I've tried and managed to be part of their journey.. Even it's just a tiny weeny part.... At least I know I've tried
Tuesday, January 01, 2013
Year 2012
Year 2012 has indeed been a happening year for me... New challenges, new experience, new attempts, new milestone
Taking up new roles.. Moving up to a different level.. Embarking to a new phase of my life..
Firstly for school.. Final year of poly life.. Moving on to 3rd year of poly, now left another 6 weeks left to go for internship.. Soon I will be waiting for graduation.. And I would have to make a decision on what I want move on after poly.. Whether to work first, or to continue studying... Is another big decision that I have to think about thoroughly
But then, for internship in Ascendas is definitely an eye-opening experience for me.. I learnt that working in the society is really different from what I imagined.. Specifically into working in a office environment, it's not as easy as what I initially thought..
Nevertheless, I did enjoyed myself during these 4 months
Secondly, family..
New family member added.. The arrival of Kayden has definitely changed my view of FAMILY.. A baby really brings joy to the family.. But then I would have to overcome my own barrier... Which I have always been struggling very hard to do so
2012 has really been an eventful year..
1. ANCOC POP
2. Zone Comp
3. Arrival of Kayden
4.Annual Camp
5. Internship at Ascendas
6. NCOC 2012
And the list goes on...
I can say that I bring back many things after every event.. In terms of learning point.. Experience.. Different impact..
However.. Especially for NCOC.. Which had definitely made an impact in me.. Even though it has been my 3rd year in NCOC.
Every year, as all of move on, taking up different roles at different levels.. Different perspective.. Which made me think differently at every aspect..
Which also made me discover myself in depth..
Hopefully 2013 will be a better year for everyone... And most importantly everybody to stay healthy and happy!!
Happy new year!!
Taking up new roles.. Moving up to a different level.. Embarking to a new phase of my life..
Firstly for school.. Final year of poly life.. Moving on to 3rd year of poly, now left another 6 weeks left to go for internship.. Soon I will be waiting for graduation.. And I would have to make a decision on what I want move on after poly.. Whether to work first, or to continue studying... Is another big decision that I have to think about thoroughly
But then, for internship in Ascendas is definitely an eye-opening experience for me.. I learnt that working in the society is really different from what I imagined.. Specifically into working in a office environment, it's not as easy as what I initially thought..
Nevertheless, I did enjoyed myself during these 4 months
Secondly, family..
New family member added.. The arrival of Kayden has definitely changed my view of FAMILY.. A baby really brings joy to the family.. But then I would have to overcome my own barrier... Which I have always been struggling very hard to do so
2012 has really been an eventful year..
1. ANCOC POP
2. Zone Comp
3. Arrival of Kayden
4.Annual Camp
5. Internship at Ascendas
6. NCOC 2012
And the list goes on...
I can say that I bring back many things after every event.. In terms of learning point.. Experience.. Different impact..
However.. Especially for NCOC.. Which had definitely made an impact in me.. Even though it has been my 3rd year in NCOC.
Every year, as all of move on, taking up different roles at different levels.. Different perspective.. Which made me think differently at every aspect..
Which also made me discover myself in depth..
Hopefully 2013 will be a better year for everyone... And most importantly everybody to stay healthy and happy!!
Happy new year!!
Tuesday, October 30, 2012
I'm so bored in office now that i'm actually updating my blog now...=.=
2 months of internship as of this week...
3 more weeks, and i'm halfway through this 22 weeks internship!!
it's already going to be the end of the year already....
many things are ending... and at the same time starting soon...
NCO course starting this week... same goes to comp training also.
hopefully those kiddos will be able to survive/do well during these 3 months..
whereby wenjun and benedict will be "promoted" to "big ones" after they finished their o'levels 2 weeks later.. hahaha
at least for now, i can hand over comp trainings to them at ease...
shall pray hard that this can go on at least for the next 1 year... hehehe
what i'm looking forward to now is the homecoming event next year!
which this will be one of the "largest" scale event that i've done before... if this event were to go on successfully! =)))
2 months of internship as of this week...
3 more weeks, and i'm halfway through this 22 weeks internship!!
it's already going to be the end of the year already....
many things are ending... and at the same time starting soon...
NCO course starting this week... same goes to comp training also.
hopefully those kiddos will be able to survive/do well during these 3 months..
whereby wenjun and benedict will be "promoted" to "big ones" after they finished their o'levels 2 weeks later.. hahaha
at least for now, i can hand over comp trainings to them at ease...
shall pray hard that this can go on at least for the next 1 year... hehehe
what i'm looking forward to now is the homecoming event next year!
which this will be one of the "largest" scale event that i've done before... if this event were to go on successfully! =)))
Wednesday, October 10, 2012
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Sunday, September 02, 2012
Sunday, August 19, 2012
Home is not like a home to me now...it's seems to be just a place for me to eat sleep and bathe and nothing else
I can no longer be myself at home..where I need to see other people's attitude when that person is living in my house now yet my while family has to bear with that person shitty attitude..
Now even when I want to study for my exam, I still have to trouble where can I go to study when the library is closed! When I could actually do it at home!
3 more papers to go and I will be done with year 3 sem 1, then followed by 22 weeks internship.. Then I'll be done with poly!!!
I can no longer be myself at home..where I need to see other people's attitude when that person is living in my house now yet my while family has to bear with that person shitty attitude..
Now even when I want to study for my exam, I still have to trouble where can I go to study when the library is closed! When I could actually do it at home!
3 more papers to go and I will be done with year 3 sem 1, then followed by 22 weeks internship.. Then I'll be done with poly!!!
Saturday, July 28, 2012
Finally met up with Huiying and Weihao on friday after 3 months plus.. Sj was still our main topic of discussion as usual.. But it was still fun gossiping about people with them though... Hahaha
It was still an awesome meet-up!
Saw Tiffany on the bus while on the way home.. The feeling was really great being able to meet up with your friends after a long time.. At least I know that I would be able to see them again very soon!
Went window shopping with mama earlier on in the afternoon... Didnt buy anything but at least spent time with mama alone..
Brought her to coffee bean to try the cheesecake... Hahaha
It was still an awesome meet-up!
Saw Tiffany on the bus while on the way home.. The feeling was really great being able to meet up with your friends after a long time.. At least I know that I would be able to see them again very soon!
Went window shopping with mama earlier on in the afternoon... Didnt buy anything but at least spent time with mama alone..
Brought her to coffee bean to try the cheesecake... Hahaha
Thursday, July 19, 2012
National competition was last Sunday...
And they got 7th in overall...
Maybe is because 我看开了 that's why I wasn't much affected by the results.. Hahahaha
Now that nat comp has ended, the 'busy period' is sort of ended up till now
This would mean that they would have to focus in their o levels
And I would have less people to mingle and talk 'crap' with whenever I go down
I will definitely miss chatting and cracking jokes with them
And they got 7th in overall...
Maybe is because 我看开了 that's why I wasn't much affected by the results.. Hahahaha
Now that nat comp has ended, the 'busy period' is sort of ended up till now
This would mean that they would have to focus in their o levels
And I would have less people to mingle and talk 'crap' with whenever I go down
I will definitely miss chatting and cracking jokes with them
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
Im glad that i went for their training this morning...
even though i woke up at 9.30 when their training starts at 9... LOL
this will be their last comp before they graduate
hope throughout these 3 years... it has been a memorable experience for them
not only for them.. but also for me..
though there's nothing im able to train them when i was down just now..
but at least i went for lunch with them...
actually did not plan to go for lunch with them..
but im glad that i went..
it's always the chit chat session that we always have after meals that made comp trainings memorable
and wenjun said that i only went for lunch with them only once for comp trainings this year..><
which i really felt guilty about it when he said it... =(
they always dont fails to make me feel guilty and very touched with their words
which is also part of the reason why i felt very attached to this batch of Sec 4s
i treat them just like little brothers and sisters to me..
just a very special feeling to them...
even though i woke up at 9.30 when their training starts at 9... LOL
this will be their last comp before they graduate
hope throughout these 3 years... it has been a memorable experience for them
not only for them.. but also for me..
though there's nothing im able to train them when i was down just now..
but at least i went for lunch with them...
actually did not plan to go for lunch with them..
but im glad that i went..
it's always the chit chat session that we always have after meals that made comp trainings memorable
and wenjun said that i only went for lunch with them only once for comp trainings this year..><
which i really felt guilty about it when he said it... =(
they always dont fails to make me feel guilty and very touched with their words
which is also part of the reason why i felt very attached to this batch of Sec 4s
i treat them just like little brothers and sisters to me..
just a very special feeling to them...
Monday, June 18, 2012
last week of holidays...
and after this week it shall be start of year 3 term 2, then followed by internship...
has been talking with mama about the holiday plans that i intend to have after my internship...
that's when i really can take a break from everything...
and at least do something i really like...
and after this week it shall be start of year 3 term 2, then followed by internship...
has been talking with mama about the holiday plans that i intend to have after my internship...
that's when i really can take a break from everything...
and at least do something i really like...
Monday, May 28, 2012
Home is not like to home to me now...
Kayden is not even 2 months old and everything is like chaos...
every now and then is like on standby...coz anytime a war could just like break out even over minor stuffs
up till now it's not even 3 months...worse to say to wait for another 3 years..
everyone in the house will get depression seriously...
i feel that i can no longer return home feeling relaxed..and be myself even at home...
i still have to put on a mask....not even when im in my own house...
when will all these things end!!
Kayden is not even 2 months old and everything is like chaos...
every now and then is like on standby...coz anytime a war could just like break out even over minor stuffs
up till now it's not even 3 months...worse to say to wait for another 3 years..
everyone in the house will get depression seriously...
i feel that i can no longer return home feeling relaxed..and be myself even at home...
i still have to put on a mask....not even when im in my own house...
when will all these things end!!
Monday, May 21, 2012
it has been long since i last posted a proper blog post...
14th april... lil kayden came to the world...
papa and mama became ahgong and ahma...
erjie and i became ahyi~
at least there's something for me to look forward to whenever i come home from school...
is to play with kayden!!
i felt so accomplished when i managed to carry kayden when i did not dare to do so cause baby are so soft~~
but whenever i carried him...and he looked at me into my eyes... (Y)
the feeling is... ^^
and up till now.. i managed to feed him for twice alrdy!
cant wait for him to be able to see clearly.. and can crawl... that would be so fun!! (Y)
week 6 already.. and next week would be mst already...
then followed by 3 weeks hols... term 2....
actually i do look forward to internship though...
which means that i'm completing my poly studies soon!!
14th april... lil kayden came to the world...
papa and mama became ahgong and ahma...
erjie and i became ahyi~
at least there's something for me to look forward to whenever i come home from school...
is to play with kayden!!
i felt so accomplished when i managed to carry kayden when i did not dare to do so cause baby are so soft~~
but whenever i carried him...and he looked at me into my eyes... (Y)
the feeling is... ^^
and up till now.. i managed to feed him for twice alrdy!
cant wait for him to be able to see clearly.. and can crawl... that would be so fun!! (Y)
week 6 already.. and next week would be mst already...
then followed by 3 weeks hols... term 2....
actually i do look forward to internship though...
which means that i'm completing my poly studies soon!!
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