sian diao...

sian diao lor...nxt week going to skul for 5 days straight away lor...monday-friday....my whole week is gone like tat...haix...ytd 1st training for comp...daniel is our instructor lor...ytd did nth much..did sum footdrill then learn how to say the commands...then afternoon gt home nursing lesson...today leh..training is 8-12++ lor...did footdrills...did a little bit of first aid short case...luckily tmr no training...if not i die le...

frm nw until end of december...total gt 14 trainings leh..nxt week...monday,tuesday,thursday n friday is comp training...then wed is cpr training...sian diao...

then the following week is monday,thursday n friday is comp training...tuesday is cpr...tired...the week after is monday,tuesday,thursday n friday comp...then tat week dun have cpr...
then on 21st dec hor...actually gt cpr de...then daniel say tat day cnt...dunno gt wat sec1 dunno wat thing....tat week still gt 3 more trainings...haix...then home nursing still nt confirm yet lor...means i will b even busier...haix...

the dates for training will b....
November:27th,28th,29th,30th
December:1st,4th,5th,7th,8th,11st,12nd,14th,15th,19th,20th,22nd,27th
*hme nursing still nt confirm yet...haix...

nxt monday de training isabel cnt cum...me have to sub her lor...then tiffany will sub me if im nt wrong....nxt week will b a busy week for me!!!my morning for the week will b spent in skul...haix....sum1 help me!!=xxx...jkjk =)

yoyo...me here to post abt the chalet thingy...the chalet was a success!!oni mr chong,mr ho,miss leong,miss ho,miss chen n mdm ng went for the bbq...in the morning me, vinus,nickie, hui n leen we all meet at cwp to set off to pasir ris..the 'journey' was really long..was really tired...finally reached aranda country club le..waited for vinus's cousin to cum n check in for us..then went into the room...the room was quite big...quite spacious bah...enough for us to slp...=p bu too bad vinus mei cnt stay...
i shall skipped the afternoon part..was quite laggy...at abt 6++ bbq start!!while eating...wait for the teachers to cum..tat mr chong was the last person to reach!!at abt 8++(i tink so)went up to bathe...vinus waited for me..then we went down again..n i realised tat he can eat alot...despite he looking so fit...standing in front of the pit..dunno eat how many sticks of satay..3 chicken wings...dunno how many corns..omg...at abt 11, teachers all go le..cleared up the pit wif nickie..went up to the room...was really tired at tat time...but was also vry sian..was finding pple to sms wif me.in the end smsed mr chong...didn't expect him to call me!!i didn't answer the call the 1st time..cuz i dunno wat to say..cuz i tot he would reply me using sms!!he called me the 2nd time..answered the phone but asked nickie to tok to him...nickie say he told her tat i vry sian..asked her to entertain me...dots...i was like ...i was really sian at tat time mah...wanting sum1 to chat wif me mah...using sms lah...but it was really nice of him to call me at a late time...btw...thxs chong kor!!i decided to call u kor nxt time...=p..

holidays start le...n i dun feel happy abt it...wat im looking forward to now it the class party we r having tis tuesday...im glad tat teachers r cuming too!!!ms ho,ms adely chen,mr chong,mdm sabrina(mayb?nt sure)...the rest still nt sure yet...
nw holiday start le..i still feel vry lonely leh...dunno y leh..

my mood is still vry sian...n i realised going out alone is really vry boring n sian...sum more ur mood is still so down...i just felt tat i'm the only one left in the world...no one no one understand me...i dun expect too much...i just wish to have someone by my side who can understand my thoughts...i'm breaking down soon...dun tink i will b going out as i dun wished to go out!!!

sian...

eoy finally finish le...i dun sound happy right??it is becuz i nw vry buay song...so as tanay...haix..i just feel tat people r selfish sumtimes...they always tink for themselves,but nt for others...y some people just like to use vuglar language...no matter is playing or wat... a'F***' will just cum out frm their mouth...i just hate tat...y is vuglar language so 'popular' nw...i realised secondary skul nowadays gt alot of ah beng n ah lian...nw no mood to say anything le...mayb will post again later after i came back frm shopping...i want to go play timezone!!!i just want to enjoy my life!!!
vinus say tmr 11 am go her hse do dance...gtg le..buaiix..

whees...=)

yo...eoy is finally cuming to an end...can relax le...today 9.45 can go hme le...me,hui n leen...we go cwp to eat kfc...then we go shopping...then when abt to go hme le...hui say she want to buy earring at the shop at the control station there...then we saw gt water bomb...then we decided to play at hui's hse...but i go hme 1st then go...hui n leen they go admiralty to buy more things tat we can play...they bought the watever spray thingy...got pink colour thing cum out de...then they tell me tat they spent 20++ dollars just to buy earrings...then we go hui hse play water bomb wif leen...but before tat was slacking at hui's rm...huii n leen was zi lian-ning wif their hp...me??of course i gt take pic wif them lah..hui was playing wif the spray thingy...making the the room vry messy...then she ask her maid cum in n clear...tthen we go minimart buy more water balloons...spent abt more them half n hour in the toilet filling up the balloons...finally can play le!!!we play outside the lift there...but the problem is..our water bombs gt too little water le...then it does nt burst when we threw it...then all the balloons finished le..still nt enough, we go take plastic bags to fill it up wif water...then continue playing lor...i'm the first one to get wet..all thanks to huii n leen...then still nt enough...we mad le..go take a pail of water out n play..the three of us was all wet to the skin...=p luckily i gt bring extra clothe to change...leen wore hui's clothe when playing so she change to uni...lolx...tmr last paper le!!art finish le then can play le!!whees!!i noe i'm mad...=)

eoy going on now...so i lazy to post...=p...tis morning...nora say she nominated me as student councilor...i told my sis abt it but she is against it...i made up mind...it is my own decision whether i want to b a councilor anot...hope eoy and soon...tis few day vry stress up...want to use computer to relax myself a little...also cannot...if i let my sis see i using pc...she surely nag one 1 lor...not like others...gt pc in their room...haiz...but i'm glad tat my parents give me freedom,they let me do my own things...they noe i can manage things well...i cannot disappoint them anymore...i must work hard for eoy...n evrything...just 6 more days to go!!!shanshan!!wake up!!must work hard!!dun disappoint the pple around who support u!!
but i really under stress...just want to let her noe tat i alrdy 13!!!i noe how to manage things well!!!the way tat u treat me really makes me feel vry stress!!i nid freedom...stress in school is alrdy enough for me...i just want to relax when i'm at hme...CAN??PLS...LET ME FEEL RELAX WHEN I'M AT HME K?

life seems to b boring for me...no one appreciate wat i have done...so wat's the point of me doing all these?! it is all WORTHLESS!!!no one cares abt me...no one around me is trustworthy...i want to find some1 whom i can pour out all my feelings to...but i can't find one...no one can b trust in tis world...the oni place i can pour out all my feelings, mayb is oni here....
sometimes i really feel like crying out...izzit so difficult 4 me to find some1 whom i can trust??i really nid a shoulder 4 me to lean on...i'm bursting out soon!!!

today seems to b a bad day for me...everything dun seems to b good to me...mood was totally spoiled by someone... it is early in the morning!!!just becuz of them...i was buay song the whole day...plz change ur attitude!!!then gekteng pass a message frm ellis to me...ellis..is nt tat i m angry wif u, is just tat i tink u have totally changed...u r different nw...
gt tons of hmwk to do...that nora lah...give 133 qns...want us to do it by tmr...go die lah...say until so easy,u try n do lah...gtg le...

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2dae is such a lousy day for me can...whole day was so sian...
today 1st period was HL...did aerobics...was quite fun..then after tat was PE, mdm salwana did skill test wif us..basketball lorr....when cher test the rest of them shooting horr,me so suay lorr..kena hit by basketball...damn pain lor...i cried...tears start rolling down my cheeks...hui go scold wenkang...who threw the ball...hui keep making me laugh...then my mood for the rest of the day was getting lousy..during recess gt ice-cream to eat...after recess, went back to class, getting ready to go 4 art...wenkang apologise to me...my mood was like sibei buay song...then i didn't wan to reply him...but in the end, i accept le...=)i'm nt the person who will remember these kind of small matter de...=)art..do drawing lor..then is dnt...did practical...our project almost finish le...oni left joining the parts together oni...after gt hmt...went there listen story...after tat go cwp wif leen n hui...hui want to buy bag...i want to buy bottle..but dun have the design i want...saw tanay mei,nickie n jiamin..we go civic centre together to accompany hui to buy bag...mood was down...after buying the bag, went back to cwp...feel like going hme le...but they all still want to walk around cwp,mood was really bad...i told them i want to go hme 1st....
To hui, leen, tanay, nickie n jiamin:sry tat i leave early cuz my mood was really bad...i scared tat if i go wif u all,i will instead spoil ur shopping mood)nth to write le...later still nid to go to my cousin's hse wif my sis...sianz...

wat shld i do...

life is so sian these few days...EOY cuming soon...so many things nid to do..suddenly feel so stress..nt really happy wif my ct3 results..
english-B3
Maths-A1
science-D7
chinese-A1
History-C5
geography-A1
Literature-C5
DNT-A2
still not sure whether r there still cca nxt week anot..still nid to brush up on my footdrill...still cannot bang properly..still doing "horsekick"pple ard me are starting to 'pon' cca n lessons...shld i do the same as them?i'm really feeling very tired...some1 plz give me sum advice...i really feeling low these few days...=.=

hi...sry for nt updating so long...quite sian these few days...then after ct3 is EOY le..haiz=.=
got back sum my ct paper le...
english-15/25
maths-33/40
science-24/50
chinese-38/50
history-13/25
geography-39/50
dnt-??
lit-??
hope tat i can pass dnt n lit...vry sian nw..nth to say le..buaiixx

just came back frm wrps....
tis morning go to for teachers' day celebration...then after tat chiong to wrps...mrs lim came out to fetch us...then we chat in the canteen...then she nid to go le...me n gloria walked ard the canteen...then took pic wif miss chan...when she send me the pic then i upload k?=)tmr going to hui's hse to do dance...sunday still gt AGI..nid to wear full u...gtg le...buaiix...btw...wish mr hoe happy birthday n all teachers a HAPPY TEACHERS' DAY!!!

me nw vry tired...feel like slping...let's start my blog frm monday bah...
monday
had sci paper...the paper was quite ok lor...but i dun tink i will do vry well...after test is lit...miss nora go through wif us the class test..i failed...sobsob...recess...then is english, miss chen taught us how to write brochures...then was history...miss chen told us the chapters tat will b tested in ct3, then went through wb,then was MATHS, see nora again sian...she checked our portfolio...she tink we vry free ah...ask us to do tis do tat...wat follow chin pang gd example...fuck lah...then assembly listen to a talk by dr william tan...
tuesday
had maths paper...the paper was ok lor...the graph qns...hui c the equations wrongly...then the whole qn get wrong... then she vry sad...recess...then was MATHS again...i hate it man...taught us new chapter...then still give hmwk,common test leh!!!...say wat do as class work...assignment got so many qns still want us to do in half n hr...geography, mr ho asked us to do self test...then after the test, went through wif us the four grid n six grid reference....then is free time le lor...oni for 5 mins nia...dotz...=p, then was chinese...went through wif us ct3 paper...i gt 38/50...i passed...then was sci...mdm sabrina didn't cum so we go hall...
wednesday
had history paper....i tink i gt 1 qn do wrong le...but is alrdy over...can't do anything to it le...hui was sick tat day, she went hme after the paper...then was sci...mdm sabrina nt in skul...went to the library again...recess...had chinese after recess...cher give us ws to do...quite easy...then pw...did the presentation...was a success..quite happy abt it...after skul gt sjab...wore quarter u...pe t-shirt,sjab skirt n skul shoes...did toc but in the end was like pt lor...run around the skul n did pumpings...then gt footdrill...damn tired...was released at 3.30...walked to the bus stop wif tiffany...went hme vry tired...started studying for geo paper at 7++
thursday
had geography paper...alrdy gt some qns wrong le...then was art...quite ok...did some colouring...recess...then gt dance...thinking of wat song to use for our dance...sci...did practical wb(but didn't go lab lah) n theory wb...then MATHS again......then is english...did brochures writing task while cher was doing oral practice...walked hme wif gek teng...
friday(today)
had lit paper...dun tink will do well...then pe...had NE lesson... mdm salwana taught us chapteh n sepak takraw...then we try out...vry fun lor...then after tat we can play games...played badminton with hui, leen, vinus n jenny...vry fun!!!was sweating alot lor...after changing to uni,my pe was really wet...lolx...recess...had dnt...cher went through the ideas wif us...then we start on our project...did sawing wood...when i saw the wood, it wasn't straight...cher helped me 'amend' it...lolx....gt hmt lesson...sian...dun want to tok abt it...went cwp wif hui n leen after eating in skul...we walked around...chit chatting....looked at stuffs...thinking of wat to buy for teachers' day...then when we go buy bubble tea...saw ong chin they all...talk here talk there...then we go take neo...then after tat we go hme...i want to go cwp to buy teachers' day present...who want to go wif me??1 person go vry boring leh...=p

let's start my post frm friday bah...
in the morning no healthy lifestyle...cuz gt ct3...the chi paper was ok for me...then after tat was pe....gt dance in dance studio...was having fun wif vinus meimei...recess...art was damn sian...dnt is quite ok...after skul dun have chi lesson...did pw...took the video for the presentation....went to causeway to meet with hui they all...jingwen treated us wif pizza...xie xie!!!!then walk around...
ytd morning, went to skul for lit class...gt lit test...during the test..tiffany sms me n ask me to go down...cuz evryone is waiting in the bus le...we r going to st john hq for first aid test...feeling quite ok on the bus...revising first aid wif tiffany cuz no matter how i read...it just can't get into my mind...the test was quite easy....confidence level=100%!!!when isabel mdm called my name i was damn happy lor...before my name was isabel...the sec 1 batch all passed...damn happy!!!went home...feeling vry tired...slept frm 3++ to 7++...then woke up...did up my maths portfolio....haiz...
today was damn sian...tmr gt sci paper...sure will fail de...
nth to write le...buaiix

tired

hi...few days nvr update le coz lazy...=p
let's start frm yesterday bah.yesterday 1st period i healthy lifestyle...quite sian...went for endurance walk instead of aerobics.then gt pe, we learnt the hip hop in the dance studio..got stepped by vinus lots of times but nvr mind..who ask her is my meimei...she so cute!!then is dnt, quite boring lor...then got hmt extra lesson, damn SIAN!!cynthia. cuiping n ellis they all go flag day briefing also nvr inform us...then after the lesson, me n shuhui rush to st john rm lor...then finally can go off...actually going hui's hse to do dance 1, then in the end change of plan, decided to go home separately...reached the bus stop le, hui called me, she ask whether want to go northpoint not...then ok lor...went northpoint, take neo then go timezone...leen pro lor...played motorbike thrice, three times also win...*clap*went home at abt 7+++.
then for today...early in the morning, woke up go skul for flag day...my grp got tiffany,priscilla,patricia, jun ren n chong yee...we went to chong pang n bishan to collect $$...first we went chong pang...alot of pple donate lor most of them are auntie uncle...after tat we go bishan.when we reached there...alot of st john pple r there lor...then everybody we saw donated le...me n tiffany went to the bus stop nearby to try our luck.not bad..gt pple donate for us...then tiffany say got 1 uncle say tat she is a beggar lor...how can he say like tat...u dun want to donate just walk away lor...is ok wif us...there is many pple out there who want to donate de...we walked back to meeting point...then patricia called n asked us whether we want bubble tea not...then ok lor...thanks patricia n priscila!!took mrt back to skul...on the way back i saw tanay mei...she nvr help me donate..sob sob...but nvr mind..who ask her is my mei mei!!=p
then went home...i too tired le...i went to sleep once i reach home!!!i slept frm 3 all the way to 6.30++
haven started on my hmwk yet...coz too busy le...nxt saturday got first aid test...gtg le!!buaiix

boring sia...tis afternoon came back frm my uncle's hse..vry tired...reached home at abt 2++ rest for abt half n hr...then start to do hmwk at 3pm... alot of hmwk lor...tmr got literature test the chinese spelling...read the outsiders bk while doing the lit ws...then the spelling...later just look through will do coz i learn last week le...if not i won't b here blogging...just nw when i came online..priscilla told me not to b too sad...concentrate on my first aid test instead...thanks priscilla!!!haiz...dun really look forward to school leh...feel very tired...though is weekend still nid to wake up vry early...yesterday is for ZIP then today have to go uncle's hse...*yawn*though many pple is online nw...no one is toking to me..sob sob...sometimes i really feel left out...i really feel vry lonely...i tink i gonna burst one day...i cannot take it anymore...somebody really take me for granted...

HELP!! sum1 help me!!!went for the ZIP exam today...the paper was difficult for me...i dun tink i can pass..but i want to pass!!!i want to get promoted!!i can oni afford to lose 20 marks in order to pass...in the morning, got no confidence for the exam at all...see the paper...confidence level=0%...haiz...the qns is mostly on history of st john n ranks of badges...got a few qns on the BF forms...i tink i got all those qns wrong...haiz...btw, isabel is the course IC,then sheng hao the the Alpha IC, Aliff the Bravo IC, Benjamin the Delta IC n i m the flag bearer today...vry nervous lor...my legs was trembling... i was holding the national flag...cannot let the flag touch the ground...if not die...i dunno how to tie the flag then i anyhow tie lor...luckily nvr drop...surprised to noe tat the PCs and APCs of the camp last time...they all get promoted le...congrats!!!
if i were to compare my confidence level between ZIP test n first aid test, i will have more confidence in first aid test...at least i m more prepared in tat...hope i can pass both test...i really want to pass the ZIP!!!!pple out there plz wish me gd luck!!!thank you!!!muacks!!! =p
i haven started on my hmwk yet...yesterday afternoon went to ah ma hse wif ma...then reached home at abt 9+...no time to do hmwk...was polishing boots...iron uni n finally read notes..today woke up at usual time...bun my hair then change into uni wif a jacket on it...reach skul le alot of seniors there le...all were busy reading notes..then after the test got footdrill...i like footdrill!!then finally last parade...i realised tat when benjamin report strength hor...he sound like he is scolding sum1...so funny...then when aliff give timing hor...he sounds so fake...came back home...used the pc for a while...i was too tired...almost dozed off in front of the pc...then went to the living room n sleep...since no one is at home...slept until 6+...then wake up...dozed off again...woke up at 7.30...watched a little of superband...then here m i blogging...tmr morning nid to go uncle's hse pray...so tmr reach home must straight away do hmwk...if not nid to burn midnight oil...i dun tink i ever tried burning midnight oil...always sleeps at 1 or 2++...
no one tag cum tag my blog one...sob sob....btw, congrats to the sec 2!!!

halo...sry for nt updating for so long...rather busy this few days so nvr on pc...haiz...tmr got the ZIP exam...nid to go skul tmr...i haven iron my uni yet!!!i still got the history of SJAB haven read yet...wish me good luck for the exam!!!just now went to my ah ma hse then after tat go jurong point shop for my skul bag...but the bags is either too expensive or i dun like it...haiz...tinking of going junction 8 to shop for bag instead...ask my sis to bring me go there...nth to post le...i tink i suxs in DNT lor...tink i can't score well for DNT tis ct3...wat shld i do!!!someone help me!!!i tink i gtg le...nid to go iron my uni le...buaiix!!

sian...now nth to do then 2moro still nid to go to skul...i dun want to see tat nora!!!hope tat she's not in skul 2moro!!!i hate her!!my sis haven change the printer ink for me...so cannot print the heymaths ws out to do...alot of test cuming...got first aid test,ct 3 n lots more...very stress leh..i just hate tat nora...i starting to hate chinese too...lessons start to becum boring...i seems to hate school now...nothing to say le...buaiix