i wonder what would happen 6 days later??..
as what he say..he think i will cry?? nvm..i shall prove it to him tt..
I WILL NOT CRY!!...=x....*but i think i will...*

but...nevertheless...all must do ur best!!...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY CUIPING!..

heavy rain in the morning just now....
therefore im drenched when i reached sch...=.=..
did fa and bandaging here and there....and my voice really cnt make it...=.=.... haix...

7 more days.....can we make it??

cry together?? LOL...=x
but seriously..i dun wish tt to happen...crying is not a gd thing either... but it is great when it is of tears of JOY!...=D

*yawns*...this week is really tired and hectic...=.=
intensive training everyday....and wif oni abt 5-6 hrs of sleep....=.=
having been yawning and dozing off in class during lesson...sian..

tmr there's still training...all the best everyone..
MUST get those 3 BIG trophies back...haha

rest well and take care uh....=)

and...no need to ans tt qn le...i know how u would reply le..so ya...=)

another 8 more days...and the big day is gonna to be here....

speechless....

i just find myself useless..i just cant do things well.....

that sentence really hurts me alot....
failure....
disastrous....

thank you daniel for just now....=)

issit my fault??

comp. training this morning......
did home nursing and fd all day.....
went cwp wif them after training....
but i was emo throughout...=.=

2 days didnt update le...
busy busy busy....coz of common tests..blah blah blah..etc...
tmr got training agn.....jy bah!!

as requested by zh...i shall also have a post abt seafood....=x...

seafood can be cooked in different ways....
bbq or watever...
but the next time i eat seafood...
i think i will have stomachache!!...
coz..it is cooked by zhenghui!! omg!!....

haha...and and and...
i really pity fizzy...haha=p

malu dao~~~...
btw...thanks zhixian, sylvia and yekai for accompany me to wait...=x...paiseh...=p...

sorry...really sorry...=(

seafood!! haha...

this morning went for comp. training in sch....
in the morning i wanted to go sch liao...den papa ask whether want him to bring me to sch anot....den i say ok lor...since i alrdy tied my hair liao....

reach sch...my hair messy dao~~.......

training training training......after today..we would only had left 11 trainings..and also 20 days left....=) or =( ????

after tt went to mac to makan.....den go hme lor...sry arh sylvia...ps u..=x...but i really very tired le...paiseh...but i wun forget u as my 'east pole' de....haha..=p....who shall b my 'north', 'south' and 'west' pole leh?? hmm...let me think...haha=p

just now got ppl came to ask me whether i ok anot.... she thinks tt i abit weird...=.=

even she can sense what is happening...haix...21 days...or rather 3 weeks to convince myself....

argh!!...totally sian diao~~...

=.=...feel so restless the whole day....wonder y...no mood for anything.=.=

ct starts today...

trying to study ss now!!...but nth seems to get into my mind!!...argh!...
more brain cells killed tonight!! hehe..=p...

thanks ppl...=D.....

u all also must jiayou...=D...

i duno wat happened to me today..sudden change of mood sia...=.= sian...25 more days...=.= or =D....i don't know..

this shall b another emo post...=(
i was thinking abt stuffs....den...haix....

many many stuffs are going on lately...which i meant this month...
2 days later shall b common test....which will ends on 25th feb....
after which it shall b intensive....which also starts on 25th...=(

shld "just go for it..."....but i don't think i can make it...=.=...what if cannot how??
i just cant help it to keep thinking on the negative sides...thoughts just kept pouring into my mind.... ppl will kip telling me "nvm de la...as long u tried ur best...it is best enough"....."dun think so much now....still gt time..." blah blah blah...

still gt time? though it seems to like still got so much time left...but i can tell u tt is NOT enough de lor!! less than 1 month time jiu....haix...

en qi...

en and zhen..=D the twin sister..=)

zhen...

en...=D

see..evidence of weiqian bullying me...haha=p
me,weiqian and darren...haha=D

haha...this time is gugu say i cute...=p

today went many many places...not really tt many la....

1st in the afternoon went to ah ma hse.....den after tt went to 'lao yi' hse....den went to gugu's hse again....coz ah ni jie jie and mengwu kor kor came to s'pore le...haha...can get to c baby....esp. the twin sister...haha=D

papa say i cute wor...haha=p

the 3 sisters....=D

me and weiqian...=D

the ladies and darren..=)

woke up at abt 10++am bah...makan and changed into new clothes jiu prepare to go out le..when papa saw me....u know wat he say?? "you very cute leh" (in chinese)....i was like...LOL...rarely can hear him say ppl cute one lor....haha=p

went to gugu hse bai nian...

den the adults went on cruise...so brought jayson and darren back...

went to arcade and watched movie at cwp...

buy makan back le....eat le den brought them down to the playground to play...

my lucky colour for this year is red, orange and purple?? haha...
im having purple specs wif me all day long...haha=)

just finished my 团圆饭.....ate steamboat...
hehe...having a fun time...
it is really enjoyable having dinner as a whole family...esp. that chinese new year is coming in a few hours time! ;)

*yawn*...just woke up frm my 1 hr+ slp...
later having steamboat for dinner...=) yum yum...

happy cny everyone!!=)

no one informed me about the changes....not at all!!...
what is this??

eeyer...they all kip say my hair look like a*****......=.=....

nvm...as long i like it can liao...haha=p

i just swept the floor just nw....haha=p...
mayb later changing the bedsheets bah...haha=x...

the weather so cooling now...also wun sweat de...haha....=)

and and and....silent reader or rather silent readerS.....pls tag leh...=(....
ahahahas=p

did not post for the past 2 days...
is because i dun want to...and i also lazy to....and partly i duno wat to post....

saturday went to hq for training....den came back le jiu go 888 cut hair....
sunday stayed at home to do hmwk...guaii bah...haha=p...

left one more day jiu cny eve alrdy.....=)
which means.......... is also coming soon le...=.=

everyone must jyjy!!

i just want to be alone for a moment....

31st jan tmr....

shld i b happy?? or shld i b sad??

i really duno...=.=

though i mentioned tt i wun b blogging today...
but seriously..i gt nth else to do online...so come post lor...=x....

but i duno wat to write abt leh...=p...

jieling: LOL?? i nvr dreamt abt my own blog lor..i can recognize my own blog de url....=x....the one tt i dreamt abt..got a really long url...=x...haha...=p

and...it may not b ur fault...it may due to some misunderstandings in between...so dun think too much la....=D

i finally know the reason behind it...=)

i was so shocked tt it is alrdy 6+pm le...=.=
i was like doing my hmwk n stuffs frm 12+pm till now and i didnt take note of the time...=.=
nvm...let's see wat are the things i can look forward to this week...
....i duno yet...

and and and..haix...better not write them here...=.=

HAPPY BIRTHDAY GAVIN!!

it is so weird...really very weird....=.=..
the atmosphere is really different now...
so as the situation...
no more tt kind of 'thinking' towards whatever thing alrdy....
i really duno wat to do alrdy...=.=
hope things can b resolved whthin the next one month bah...
hope so...
faster come online leh....=.="'

woke up at 6am today...=.=
but nvm...coz it is because of POP....haha...
it is both a happy and sad thing la..
happy is tt we got the SGT rank....den sad is coz shenghao was really disappointed abt him unable to get the best cadet...den he cried..
me as usual.the easily affected one...few drops of tears dropped down la...but instead.i was laughing while tearing...LOL...haha

congrats to fizzy for getting the drill cane!!
congrats to wh and angie for getting cadet leader!!..
congrats to all those who got SSGT!!..=D

5 days to.......
41 days to.....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TIFFANY!!
happy housewife!!..

just reached home frm learning journey....or i shld b home abt 45 mins ago??? coz i've been waiting under the hot sun for abt half an hour??=x....hehe....

nw im posting while waiting for papa to cook mianxian for me..=p coz i haven eat...=)

ppl kip say my post very emo...=.=...but tats how i feel mah...so it doesn't matter..=)

我很担心
我怕事情还会再发生一次
上次的经验已经让我无法接受了

我担心整件事会因我而起
我怕我会搞杂整件事

如果我担心的那件事真的发生，那该怎么办呢??
我真的不希望会发生
怎么办！

got to know some secrets just nw in sch....
wahaha....=p.... but cnt say here...if not ****** will bash me up de...haha...
eye pain pain..=.=...

i think this post will b quite moody bah...
it is alrdy 4th week of sch le...
which means common tests is also coming very soon...=.=..
and after common tests shall b comp. alrdy...
just looked through the calendar..realised..we oni left a few comp. trainings....in february got new year...still got common test...haix..how to train??=.=...
and....is coming soon.......but seriously...i dun look forward to it...=.=. sian...y must it b like tt??

nvm...as long there's a smile on the face can le...
kuai kuai le le guo yi tian bah....

just now went out wif mama to shop for new year clothes..
bought 2 tops and 1 bottoms...both the tops are PINK!!...
paiseh la...i just cant live without pink can...=p
shop till 8.30 lyk tt den reach home..=p

gd luck to all those going for ssgt n cl interview tmr!!
jyjy!! =D

yeah!! i've passed the course....
HURRAY!! =D
tania...u are the first whom i tell the news arh...=p

it has been 3 weeks since sch reopens.
many things has happened over these 3 weeks.
good and bad things..i can slowly list them down...but i chose not to do them here.. it is private and confidential yeah...LOL...jkjk
1st week of sch: 1) recruitment day..
2) sec 1 orientation camp
2nd week of sch: 1) lots of stuffs to settle
2)comp. training
3) first activity of the year
4)recruitment day debrief
and also...lots of hmwk!!..now i understand why they say sec 3 life is really a nightmare..=.=..im starting to feel the stress now...=(

but nevertheless, there are still things for me to look forward to....
1) chinese new year!!...angbaos!!
2)comp.

everyone must jiayou!! =)

went out to meet da jie abt 6.30...to kieran's b'day celebration...
den after tt went to west mall dere walk walk...bought a pair of shoes there...
den went back to woodlands...shopped ard at cwp...bought a bag at john little..=D...
meeting tmr...

comp. training in sch today...
blah blah blah...did homenursing and footdrill....den did some bandaging...
went to cwp to meet er jie....
den go walk walk...
saw tania at popular....den saw daniel, hazel, yahya and manan at long john....so many instructors....=x...
den went home makan lor....=)
mayb later going out agn?? i duno...=)

will post again later if possible...

camp end le...cca open hse also over le...but i still haven post abt it...

i talk abt it briefly la....
camp 1st day...rush here rush there...den at night slp at library...cold dao~~~...like fridge lyk tt..=.=

2nd day..cca open hse....only manage to do one case...=.=...do halfway den ppl walk away liao...=.=..bo bian...continue wif cpr lor...den do abit of human grabber... den at night fell asleep in the ops rm...i still rmb tt at night got one cat went into the ops rm...den kaixian tot it was wat figure moving on the table...=x...he woke me up den i cua tio...the cat was under the table i was slping at...=.=...continue to sleep after tt...=.=...

3rd day...break camp le...was tired dao~~~...=x....

tmr first activity of the year!!...look forward to it!!=D
thanks all instructors and seniors who helped out in recruitment day!..=)

4-6 jan was the sec 1 orientation camp.....
05012008 was the recruitment day...

i wanted to post more on it...but im currently quite lazy to do it now..mayb later or tmr bah..=)

2nd day of sch...
i've got not much things to say...i mean i duno how to describe...
tmr will b sec 1 camp..and saturday shall b recruitment day..=.=
hope it will b a successful one...
jiayou everyone!! =D

*still wondering who was tt "一个人"....*

pink is mine...orange is sylvia's..

interlocked....
'S'
the lightsticks in the goodies bag..

just nw went to count down wif sylvia...
we walked ard den we went to sit under the mrt tracks to chit chat...
saw tiffany and zhenghui...
we also saw those officers..they doing public duty i tink..
watched the fireworks...is nice...=)
den sylvia n i agreed to call one person to say happy new year when it is 12am...so she called 'erhem' den i called yx...LOL...
i even sms him before tt to ask whether he sleep alrdy anot...but he still playing maple wif ben...=.=
the conversation was on abt 5 seconds long...n i kept asking whether he hear wat i said not...LOL..
was so funny la...ben was also jealous tt i didnt call him to say Happy New Year...=x...LOL...
and and and..i tio tricked by benson....=.=...coz he called me to tell me tt there's main comm meeting the next day...and i still asked him wat time...=.=... =p
it is alrdy 2008 le...
all the best to everyone...=D...

Happy New Year!!

just another 5+ hours to 2008....
and in another 1+ hour im going for countdown at cwp wif sylvia!!...haha
secret sharing time yea??? hehe....

hope tt 2008 will b a better year for me?? and also everyone of course...
wishes for 2008:
-do better in sec 3
-cope well between studies and sjab...
-NA win champion in comp. so as AA n NC...=D

i can oni think of all these right now...will add in when i thought of any later...=)

last training of the year....and is at hq...
is tired de lor...
slept on the train frm dohby ghaut to admiralty...
actually wanted to alight at admiralty den take bus de...but i lazy..=x
alight at woodlands liao den straight away go take bus liao...lazy to talk much..coz zzZZ soon le...
tmr morning still got meeting in sch...last day of 2007 tmr?? wuld it b a memorable one?? mayb yes mayb no..
=)

think i should remain silence...

hope everything are fine now... but i think is difficult to go back to the past...=.=
anyway thanks alot...happy daddy...
sorry for the 'smelly' face just nw...=x

im tired of everything..
i cant b bothered now..

merry christmas..=)

haix...wat we can do now is just to work hard..

tis time i really regret le..

sorry...

NA has alrdy in christmas mood??=p

just nw went out wif sylvia.went to watch movie..alvin and the chipmunks....so cute la....

after tt went makan..den went window shopping..walk walk den shared alot of secrets...haha...nw tt vice-chairperson is so 'outdated' liao...haha=p

thanks sylvia for the 'handphone'!!...haha=D

haix...
now is my turn to b sick...=.=...
sneeze sneeze sneeze...=(

just hope everything goes well..

oh ya...just now read sylvia's blog...remind me of smth...

going out wif sylvia tis saturday....anyone want to join us??
first come first serve leh...so must fast fast...haha..jkjk...no la...if interested can come find us...haha=D

i just watched the tis year NC'07 de footdrill video..took during comp. de... i just cant believe my eyes when i first saw it lor...i just find it very funny la...and the background de noise also abit.....erhem erhem..*no offence* LOL..

im starting to luv trainings now...the reason is becoz...HAPPY family!!.. hope everyone stay happy!!...=D
ps...the video abit blur...sry..
*im innocent!! yuan wang arh!!*

let me introduce to you the 'happy' family....
Daniel - Happy Daddy
Jieling - Happy Mummy
Gavin - Happy Papa
Hazel - Happy Mama
Me - Happy Woman
Tiffany - Happy Housewife(previously Happy Nun)
Zhi Xian - Happy Sumo
Cynthia - Happy 'Qiao de'
Cui Ping - Happy Dar Dar
Wei Hao - Happy 'Ouch'
Yee Xuan - Happy Man
Benjamin - Happy Darling
Sheng Hao - Happy Apple

Hahaha....
Daniel is back to train us le..=D

happywoman??

but im not feeling tt way now..

a long day today....
lazy to elaborate...=x...

but received a bad news today....haix...=(

why must things turn out to be like tt??

sorry if i've done anything tt has make u guys angry...i know tt i mayb quite annoying sometimes....or sometimes i may just ignore u all....

im really sorry if i did tt before...=(

just tell me wat u feel n i'll try to change...

i mentioned before tt i gonna post today...so im here...=D

advance course is finally over...and im free now....
one more burden off my hands le....congrats ben n shenghao....

though im abit sad tt i didnt get the best cadet...but after thinking....
so wat if im didnt get nominated for best cadet...im still the original me...even if i really get the best cadet...will it make a difference?? im still me...

im having a really low profile in the course...just a pledge taker....i cant expect much things...cant possibly..sit there do nth..n get nominated for best cadet..does not make sense right....no matter wat...i will still do my best in the corp de...=D

advance nco ended....now is time for recruitment training...hope everything goes well....if not...i'll b the one suffering from shock....=.=

hehe..i was too lazy to post ytd...=.=
no lah..coz was busy doing MOI ytd...so didnt manage to post...
these few days was all MC meeting....today was somehow the last MC meeting before the OGL training le..

i just cant wait for dec 8 to come!
coz..tat day shall b the MOI first aid....and once tat's done...im free!!
no more advance course!!....yeah!..=x...i know some pple will bash me up if they read tis...haha=p

http://www.flickr.com/photos/lee_fengshan/sets/72157603374439219/

outing pics!!

my eyes are closing soon..=.=

sweet dreams everyone!!=D jiayou jiayou!!

i've survived the camp!! WooHoO!!

NCO camp tmr....
will i survive it??
i duno....
dun really look forward to it....=.=
how i wished it is alrdy monday when i open my eyes...coz it is the day when we break camp!!..ok..i know is lame....

just hope tt the camp is ok for me....
9 december...fast fast come!

digging for treasure??
let's start searching for it!
dig dig dig!
still digging for it...
guess what's the treasure?? a green mug..=.=..=p

sec 2s gather!! but dun have ellis and ya hui...=(
the food....leftover de....after everyone has taken..
the drinks for the day...orange n ribena
proudly prepared by:jeffrey and yee xuan!! haha
my dar dar...hehe

the 'xiiao Pwince & Pwincess'
'Yellow Rubber Duckling'
tats how i look like after the flour game....=.=
NA gather!
recovery position?? LOL....

outing at east coast park is really fun!!....
the 'Yellow Rubber Ducklings' and the 'xiiao Pwince & Pwincess'.....
i was totally wet lor....
and one thing tt...i can admit is tt..i really gt STM liao...i cnt rmb things!! =.=

fun fun fun!!

comp. training at hq ytd....
reached home at abt 7 lyk tt....
ate le den went to bathe....
went to sleep at abt 9++pm like tt...was really tired...
and i just woke up just now...
it has been a long time since i slept so long..=.=

last theory course before the camp phase...
had MOI footdrill the whole day...so tired can...=.=
i was the lucky person of the day...i was the first person to do the MOI...
actually still can la...but the thing is tat...i think i can say 'byebye' to my drill cane liao.....=(

my head kena hit once again..=.=

i dun look forward to tmr at all!!

boo....
ytd lazy to post....and also busy editing stuffs...
ytd afternoon lyk tt went to sch wif papa to buy books...came back le jiu go m'sia to makan...

after tt jiu stay at home busy wif proposals le.....

casualty stimulation though seems very interesting...but when is in front of u...eeyer....=x....it look quite real...O.o....

i want to sleep...=.=...
today is really a long day for me...

body-builder?? LOL...

hehe...ytd didnt post coz too tired le....
comp training at hq today..still ok lo...but the thing is tt...i keep shouting 'NC Enter!' instead of 'NA Enter!'.......
=x....
see la...tell u alrdy...i still cnt forget abt NC mah...so kip saying NC lor...=p...no lah...just kidding only la..=p

the plastic bag for putting bandages is spoiled again....this time is not yx's fault...is mine..=.=....( k la...i admit liao lah...=p) jkjk.... coz...er hem....=x....haha....

tmr's training will b in sch....

im going bonkers sooN!!!

why issit me?
i just don't understand...issit my fault? mayb is mine...
it shld b mine

tagged by fizzy...

1. Do the following WITHOUT complains
2. Choose 5 people to do this after you completed yours
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Favourites
Colour: pink!!
Food: see first lor...see got what food around me...
Song:smoothing song?
Movie: can make me laugh can alrdy

Have you ever:
Dated Your Best Friend:dated?
Broken The Law: hmm..let me think...
Been Arrested: caught red-handed yeah?? haha...jkjk
Skinny-Dipped: of course not!
Been On TV: dun think so...
Kissed Someone You Don't Know:not until now..
5 things you are wearing:shirt shorts and specs????
4 things you've done today: slept,brush my teeth,used comp,eat
3 things you can hear right now:typing,my munching sound,the fan turning
1 thing you do when you are bored:SMS??

5 winners who win:Sze Huii,ShenG hAO, bENjamin,Sylvia, tiffANY!

outing briefing today....outing will b on 28 nov...on a wednesday.....
den the rest went off le...we stayed in the room to play TABOO!!..

kip guessing...very fun..=x...after tt went to eat at mac.....gossiped alot...i think we sat there frm 1++ to 3++...=p....the admin family...haha...jieling the 'chairperson'....haha...the rest all employees....=x

btw...1 time....for both hand n head...=.=

i got PAPA n MAMA liao...?? haha

papa-patricia
mama-jieling....

hahaha!!

went for advance theory just now....
shan't go into details..=.=

oni when im on the bus back to woodlands den i realised tt we were actually released early....went to cwp to makan long john....blah blah blah....

tmr got training....

eh...duno wat to write le =.=....but i got smth i must say...=p

Happy Birthday Daniel!!

stayed at home all day long....
didnt go anywhere..wanted to go shopping de..but in the end didnt...
woke up at abt 11.30am...had kfc for lunch...=x

ytd after coming back frm sch...spent abt 3-4 hrs in front of the comp. to do up the proposals and meeting minutes...=p...pro eh...=x
of course in between got slack lah..chit chat here n there...jieling got to know some rumours liao leh... but issit true anot...i duno.!!=p...haha

i shall wait for late december to come...real soon!!...haha=p

went to sch for meeting...also check out which class im in nxt year....
im in 3/7....benjamin same class wif me!!...szehuii also!!...haha...
....

and also...sry patricia...for 'eating ur tofu' just nw...haha..=x

ytd didnt post coz....im tired to do so...
didnt go for the chalet...coz im not feeling really well...(sry guys...)
ytd's training was quite ok...more of first aid...did case....

no trainings till sunday...=.=...i'll b like so sian at home...i want training!

woke up at abt 11.30am lyk tt....
gt nth to do sia...sian dao~~~....
shenghao also felt tt too....
no matter wat...NA, AA and NC must jiayou!!

today 1st training at hq...
woke up at 6.45am...den wash up den go control station liao....
when i reach there...1st thing i do is ask yx.."my eyes got 1 big 1 small not?"
when i wake up...found out tt my eyes one is smaller than the other lor...mayb not enough sleep bah...=x...

when we first reached...did footdrill...did a demo for NC....i quite satisfied wif it la...at least got solid bangs...=p....
did a few more rounds den went up hall for first aid....
quite ok...i just realised tt i cant untie the knots i tied...=x....weird...

homenursing...went through some theories...den go do first aid case liao....ard 4.30...went to do 1 last round of footdrill....jerry sir was there watching...*stress*....haha...jkjk =D

went back to woodlands...on the way back on the train...got one auntie very funny...=x....oni them know wat happen...haha....den we sat under the mrt tracks to eat n chit chat...=D

i've got only one word to describe today...'TIRED'!!...
lazy to describe today as im really tired...=.=...*yawns*.....
tmr still got comp. training at HQ...which i quite look forward to....
think i go rest liao....buaiix...cya tmr if possible...=D

stayed at home the whole day....except tt went out for a while in the afternoon to get CPL rank frm sylvia....=D

came home..used comp. den polished boots lor...slacked at home a while....finished ironing my full u le....tmr shall b the first day for me wearing CPL rank bah...haha!....

tmr is the first advance nco theory course le...everybody must jiayou k!!...do ur very best!..=D dun forget tmr 7am at woodlands control station!...=)

=.=
just now went out in a hurry to hand in proposal n also collect $$...n there goes my $3.40...took a taxi there la..=x
i was panting when i reach there....=.=

stuffs settle le den i come home lo...later going out again to pass sylvia the $$

cya...
p.s....thanks sylvia...love ya....=)