*yawns*..... today is the last ndp training le...den wednesday shall b the actual parade le...pray tat it would not rain on tat day.....

training was ok la...is just tat not feeling really well la...but i didnt fall out la....tiffany was not feeling well in the middle of the training....wat to do leh??i forced her to sit down by the side n asked her not to fall in....of coz wif the help of fizzy la=)...if not she wun listen to me de...=x

den after training walked hme..was having alot of fun on the way out la...hehe...=p

oh ya...today de assembly got the cca honours day de prize presentation....me...wh..pat n jieling went up on stage to get the cert...jieling took the service award thingy...den me..wh n pat we take for NC AC and NA de lo....

n i realised hor...when the emcee are reading the AC de achievements tat time hor....lyk going to lost her breath lyk tat leh...=.=....coz AC got too many things to say le...wat "Zone champion in Inter-Corps First Aid and Homenursing Competition,Champion in First Aid Short case in National First Aid and Homenursing Competition in the Ambulance Cadet category" ....long right?? LOL...

i very happy la...is my second time going up stage to receive prize for NC le leh....last time is trophy....now is certificates...=) happy!! happy!! hehe...=)

stayed at home...did nth much....
just now tiffany told me tat the thing at vista park....tear down le!!
sian diao la....all the things we wrote there...tat person haven even go read those things...now alrdy have been torn down le...=.=..sad sad....

haix...now he would never have the chance to read wat we have written for him le.....sobsob...
tats y i say treasure the present....dun wait until lose it le den sit down there n cry....u will regret it de....wat to do now??? i don't know...=(

...today woke up at abt 1++pm....=x....i noe i pig...=x
ate....den did abit maths...den come on9 le....read blogs...den went to search for ndp songs....=)

basically nth much lo....also nvr go..coz no ppl jio me...haha...jkjk....

today is boring?? n sian???

today got public duty....went to station 2 wif patricia....we took the wrong route....so we quickly ran to the staircase dere lo...was sweating la...even though we are just doing duty....=.=....

den lessons...blah blah blah...duno wat to say la....after the watever chi prog....went to cwp to buy smth liao den go hme le...very sian....wonder y.....=.=

today sch ends at 1.30pm...very sian...went to eat at the canteen...den went into the rm to c tiffany n thahira packing the 1st aid kit...while listening to them chit chatting...n dere's one point of time tat the rm was really NOISY!!...haha....

den meeting starts at 2.30 lo.....the suzhou ppl reach le...heard tat they went into st john rm wor...haha...den abt 3.30...walked to cwp wif..yx..wh,pat,angie n zx....talk here n dere....den reach cwp le...pat n wh went off le....me,angie,zx n yx...we continue to walk ard...wait outside mac for sylvia n yekai....

they had a mission today wor....is called de "寻找daniel大作战" =.=...dey say wat want to go up to foodcourt to walk one round...to c whether got daniel anot....i was lyk...haha... in the end walk one round le...dun have la...=x....

den we went shop shop....sat at mac a while...chit chat abit....yx thought i dun eat mac 1 wor...hehe....den at abt 5++ lyk tat we went hme lo....u noe wat yx told me when we are leaving?? he say long time nvr pinch me liao...i was lyk LOL.... hehe...i will not let u pinch de...=x

today's lesson was alright lo....though im falling asleep...but i still managed to stay awake...=x

today's activity starts at 1....so we all was like changing faster than usual...=.=...n when we reached the room...cuiping even said tat ' yeah!! we are faster than tiffany!!'...LOL....

after uniform inspection...patricia told me tat i will b going on stage for cca honours day to receive award wor...so happy la!!

games....priscilla went for the NDP performance thingy...so i became the assistant games IC.....it was indeed fun la!! =)

after activity....on the way out of sch....was saying lame jokes wif tiffany...yeexuan...yekai n angie la....so funny la...den walked hme wif tiffany...

=.=....today mdm leow nvr come...so chi is free period....did smth...n it make me angry la...n also waste my paper n pen ink....!!

after sch got swimming....played the ball game agn...after tat went back to sch to do admin work lo....received tiffany's sms n she said tat she saw daniel twice at cwp!! she n daniel hen you yuan hor???!! hehe...

walked to cwp wif wh n yx .........and on the way there....yx say smth abt me....he says tat im short....=.=...i very short meh?? he oni 10cm++ taller den me oni mah...=x jkjk

saw cuixia n her bf at control station....she as usual so funny la...LOL.... den we went to cold storage to buy bbt.... after tat go home lo....

tmr got activity...nid to prepare full u....polish boots....anything else?? i don't noe...haha=x

today after sch got ndp training....feeling quite tired leh...mayb is becoz i nvr eat anything bah...=x....tats y my stomach was grumbling...=x...hehe....tiffany gonna kill me if she reads tis...haha...=p

after sch walked hme wif tiffany n jeff....haix...still got maths hmwk haven do...suan le..later den do...hehe..=p

let's c....

tuesday-----swimming
wednesday----activity cum ndp full dress rehearsal..
thursday----meeting...
friday---i tink i free bah...but is after 2 la..=.=...i want to watch movie leh...ppl acc me leh...=x haha....

currently...im..thinking of....??? i duno la.=/

just now had admin meeting at RP.....actually meeting yx n arinni at cwp 1st de...who noes arinni cnt make it...so took bus to rp wif yx....

meeting until 7++ den go hme....as usual...yx was still lame-in during the meeting...haha....

i duno wat to write le..=x.... tmr got ndp....

took it when going hme tat time...=)

today didnt go swimming...coz raining..=.=....sian diao la....

instead me n huii went to cwp jalan jalan.... oh ya....i also saw instructor cuixia there.....went to basement to buy mini melts den saw nickie n tanay they all at mac....blah....den we went walk walk.... went to popular....saw cuixia agn...LOL

went mos dere makan....after tat went to meet tanay....went library slack....

library dere very cold la......walked ard at abt 6.30++ liao...went to buy lollipops den went hme liao... very detailed hor?? hehe...=x

shall skip the sch part bah....=x...hehe..im bad....
after sch gt the chi lesson...den straight away went for admin meeting in the canteen...=)

do this n tat lo....den the canteen uncle was to wipe the tables..den we move to the benches near the sch gate dere....chit chatting at the same time....=p

at abt 4++ lyk tat....me...wh n yx walked to cwp for bbt...=) on the way there was playing on the street la...so funny la....stopping here n dere....n i felt so 'zi bei' standing between dem....=.=...haha....

finished buying bbt le den go interchange take bus lo...i saw the 900 bus come le den i quickly run lo...who knows weihao also taking 900....hehe...=)

swimming tmr?? hehe!!!=)

sch mah....erm...hmmm...ok ok?? hehe=x

after sch got full dress rehearsal....quite ok la...i got nth to comment abt it....den blah blah blah....after tat went home lo....was using my water bottle to spray water on wl lo....n he even tried to pour water on me...but i ran away!!...hehe=p

walked till the traffic light dere....yeexuan went 'kenan' while we went 'kehadapan'....=x.....den walked wif jeffrey lo...=)

reached hme le...makan...den come here to post lo....later still nid to do hmwk...=.=... tink tmr den i post again bah...

let's see....

friday....got anything???
saturday....swimming??
sunday....meeting?? i don't noe...hehe =p

today sch was ok lo...lessons was alright...just tat history cher nvr cum..so slack in class lo...=x



den after sch got activity....they all learn slow march le...so fun...=) den NDP.....was raining in the 1st place...so did drills in the shelter lo....blah blah blah....tired...=.=



walked hme lo....just finished polishing my boots....now left nid to prepare full u oni...=)



hehe...tink i must ting hua le....must listen to someone le...=x....
heh....must b honoured tat got pple miss you wor...haha!! jkjk...no offence...=x

"there are better n brighter future ahead of u...its no good to miss things EVERYTIME!!!! once in a while, its good... but whatever passed its passed... say CHEERS to ur future" SMILE and look forward to the future! copied from some1 de blog=)

to someone: sorry if i caused inconvenience for u....=(

today mah.....???*think*....shall tell u when i tot of it...hehe...

today de weather so cold la...was sneezing all day long la..brr.....

den after sch went swimming....played duno wat ball game....sian..=.=
the wind was so cold la...go into the water still very cold..was freezing like duno wat...=.=

den went back sch....went for the audition for the duno wat compeitition....sing song...=) den after tat went home lo...
boring right??=x.....later nid to polish boots....prepare half-u....=)

btw...today is instructor manan de b'day....

HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!

sch was.....??? i duno....=x
assembly got debate....both our class de teams got into top 3 wor!! congrats!!...den pe...blah blah blah....
during english...celebrated mdm chang's de b'day....!! haha.......

after sch went for sjab meeting....tat sheng hao just cant stop sabo-in me yea???after tat went to cwp to buy bbt den go hme liao.......

just nw took a nap wif mummy....slept frm 6.30++ till 8.30++ lo....dun feel like waking up lo...the weather so cooling...just nice for sleeping...=x....really mah...=x

tmr got swimming....

after reading tiffany's blog....
i realised how much.........
i miss NC....
i miss chatting wif daniel...=.=
i miss the time when im busy wif all those stuffs...
i miss the time when my calendar is filled wif comp. trainings....
i miss everything tat is related to NC....
really...i felt a stronger sense of belonging when im wif NC....

but now.....haix.....everything has changed....everything is so different now...how i wished i could go back to the past...but....it is all history now....there's no way i could go back to the past...whatever is over can never come back again.....

why is reality so cruel!!!! i hate reality!!

one word to describe today....= sian.....
stayed at home the whole day...didn't have to mood to go out....
tink i having mood swings bah....sudden change of mood...sorry tiff...=(

我觉得我有一点疑神疑鬼了。不管什么事，一定会往坏的方面想。是我想太多了吗? 今天不知怎么了，心情似乎跌入谷底，怎么也拉不上来。刚才翻阅博客，看到了那么一句话，情绪不知怎么了，觉得很愤怒。真的不明白为什么他要这么说。是不是我们得罪他? 还是他不满意?
我不知道是不是我错意了，错解他的意思。现在的我不知怎么了，觉得很无助。
真的希望有人可以告诉我应该怎么做！！ 现在的我，脑子里简直是一片空白！！

helpless...

boo!!
today racial harmony day...wore ethnic costume lo...quite enjoy today la...quite fun....took alot of pics also...nxt time den i upload bah....=)
after sch got hcl lesson...den went to canteen makan.....chit chat wif tiffany dey all....we even discussed abt having a chalet wor...haha!!

den 3pm like tat went for ndp....today sort of done the actual thingy of the ndp parade lo....tired la....stand there till want to doze off le..=x

after tat dismissed le...walked to cwp wif wh,zx,jieling n yx....fizzy was walking behind us wif ellis they all....and we realised tat is sort of 'admin gathering' wor......haha!! go admin!! haha!!

den went to interchange to take bus lo...=)....

tmr sec 1s going to take their first aid test le....jiayou wor!! dun be so tensed up la...relax...i believe tat u all can do it de!!! =) all the best sec 1s!!=)

Um, um goes the little green frog one day
Um, um goes the little green frog
Um, um goes the little green frog one day
And all go um, um, ah

And all the frogs go
(clap) Shalalalala(x3)
And all the frogs go
(clap) Shalalalala
And all go um, um, ahh

sch was alright lo....quite tired la...
after sch...discussed wif cuiping abt the board...den chit chat wif tiffany n thahira also...=)
im so malu la....=x all thxs to.......
speechless...=p

oh yah...forgot to post pictures...=x...on the way home...yeexuan n yekai took my bottle and did some 'art work'....haha!!


done by yekai....

done by yeexuan...

Oh... eppo e tai tai eh-yah
Oh eppo e tai tai eh-yah
Oh eppo e tai tai
Eppo e toki toki(x2)
Eh-yah

Oh... eppo e toki toki eh-yah
Oh eppo e toki toki eh-yah
Oh eppo e toki toki
Eppo e toki toki(x2)
Eh-yah

today mah....i dun wat to describe leh...haha...sch was alright....i quite enjoy today's history lesson bah...=) den after sch got activity....

during lecture...got back first aid test....87/118 =) happy la!!remembered last time i got say before ben called me 'shanshan' during lecture mah.... haha....den tis time round got new names le....shenghao is 'haohao' n benjamin is 'benben'...=.= very rou ma or mushy right....*hair stands up*...haha!!

den went for NDP training...not bad la...did the formation....also did hentak wif the music...though tired but enjoyed it la...=)

after NDP training...did some basic drills...blah blah blah....had water parade den sang the hentak song....duno y today very enthu...haha....after activity...chit chat wif tiffany...benjamin n shenghao....i tink tis was the first time the 4 of us sit down tgt n chit chat bah...rare chance leh...haha...kidding oni...=p talked abt many things....=) ben...dun forget abt wat we said before arh....haha!!

Dum dum didi didi(x2)
Dum dum didi di dum
Di dum dum dum
Dum dum didi didi(x2)
Dum dum didi di dum
Di dum dum dum

today was alright lo....sci n eng cher nvr cum....english fell asleep during the last half n hour....=.= den blah blah blah....

after sch went swimming....quite fun lo...but rather tired la...=) den went back to sch wif cuiping n huiting....den walked home at abt 6 lo...today not much things la...

tmr got activity....nid to prepare full u...but im tired now....nvm...i go slp 1st...later den iron uni...=) wish me gd luck!!

hope tmr will b a better day!!=)

As we walk to the left
and we walk to the right
as we walk as we walk
as we walk all night
with a heel and a toe
and a half-turn around
with a heel and a toe and a new friend found!

today sch end at 1.....went to cwp a while wif huii they all....we went different directions n end up tgt in cwp....in front of me n huii were yx...yekai n zx they all....heard them talk talk....was so funny la....

went to cwp to buy bbt....saw tiffany there....buy le bbt then take bus go home wif tiffany le....actually wanted to go and look for ben n shenghao de....but who noes they are in arcade...n both of us were in sch uni...so too bad..=.=....

reached home le...sms ben to ka-jiao him....he say i look like those type of guaii kia which dun go to arcade 1 wor.....wah...he look so highly of me arh...thank you! thank you!!..... but too bad he was wrong...though i look like 'guaii kia'.....but i also play in arcade 1 u noe...dun play play....haha!!=x

duno wat to write le....tink i go makan liao..hungry hungry!! =) sayonara!

today ...nth much...spent my day at home...
woke up at abt 11.30++...ate...read newspaper n did nth....
afternoon do hmwk...blah blah blah....
now i duno wat to do....sian....tmr sch release at 1pm...tink im going straight home after tat bah..unless got pple want ask me out...haha!!!jkjk.....
i duno wat to post liao....sian..=.=
the dream i had ytd reminds me of smth...haix....gen gen yu huai...

memories are really precious....i must treasure dem alot alot alot...i sot le...suddenly cum to tis topic....smth must have gone wrong...haix...

i must endure!!

today woke up at 1.30pm++...=x.....actually 6.30++ woke up le...but i went to slp in my parents' room.....laid on the floor....=x....dreamt of many many things la...but i forgot liao...=p....woke up halfway...realised my right eye was swollen....den went back to slp again.....

den in the afternoon....mama made papa to eat 52 grapes becoz today is his 52nd birthday....LOL....lame right??? but tats my mama la....den my papa dere kip 'arm chio'(sp....)......haha!!! my parents is always tat funny....=p

went to temple wif mama to pray....also to huan shen...coz i made a wish there last sunday n it came true!!=) i tink u all can guess what's my wish alrdy bah...=)

after tat took bus to woodlands centre dere...bought slippers....den shop here n dere....bought ice-kachang!! yum yum!!!den ard 5++ take bus go home lo...reached hme at abt 6.30......

tink i post till here bah!!....Happy Birthday to Papa!!!

hope tmr will b a better day!!!=)

paiseh for not posting for so long....(long meh???=x)

hmm...i forgotten wat i did on monday le...=x...so skip skip skip...bleah...

tuesday...
in the morning...AC presented the trophy to the principal....blah blah...den after sch went for swimming lo...after tat rushed hme to wash up....coz still got Dim Sum Dollies at night....not bad la...very nice...they all very cute la...=) reached hme at abt 11.30...bathe....polished boots....till 1am den slp...

wednesday....
was very tired la....couldnt stay awake for the whole day....after sch got activity....had first aid test....den went for NDP training....no games for us....=(....=x....wasnt feeling really well...wasnt hyper for tat day...was having a very black face...sorry for showing attitude....sry shenghao...=(

thursday...
hmm....ytd sch was normal...after sch got NDP training...but it oni starts at 3....went to canteen to eat wif yx...zh...cyn...ellis...cuiping...hanis...blah blah..i forget liao..=x...yx very malu leh...he did sumting to fizzy wif my bottle..he was like....erhem....haha!! den training start le....when break...we all was like kip saying tat our hands very pain lo...=x.....den blah blah....did march-in n march-out for the parade thingy....the formation also....den abt 6 like tat went home lo....

friday....
first period was HL lo...skipping....den lesson....blah blah....after sch no chi lesson...so went home lo...but walked to cwp wif ben....talk here talk dere...den we saw jef n zh....n i take bus hme lo...n here m i posting....=)

my post long enough le alrdy???=x...haha...my stomach grumbling now....want eat le...buaiix...=)

WooHoo!!! i just reached hme 10 mins ago....

just nw went to support NA n AC wif jeffrey n fizzy....

AC won champion in first aid short case!! n 6th in overall!! congrats!!! n Happy Birthday to BENJAMIN!!!.....

after the prize presentation....sang birthday song for ben in the hall...on the bus sing again!!...haha...went to eat wif them at cwp in the foodcourt....as usual...was having a lot of fun...haha!!!

07/07/07.....

today had CIP lo...went to 509 & 515....today ended quite early...i reached hme at abt 11.30 lo...ate...n i slept frm 1++ till 4++ lyk tat...watched abit tv le den do hmwk liao...managed to finish my hmwk...if not tmr cnt go support dem le....=)

didnt post ytd coz...im lazy to on comp......bleah...ytd was quite ok lo...morning had HL...den lessons....after sch got wat chi lesson...quite fun la...den 2pm went to sjab rm to help abit...helped dem iron uni....at abt 3pm got maths test...no confidence la...

after the test went back to the room...went to chat wif tania n jieling...n i manage to scare jieling...haha!! helped to polish sheng hao's boots....abt 6.30 den leave sch lo.... walk to cwp dere...aisyah realised tat she left her uni which she needed for the today's interview in the room....called isabel whether she can lend her uni not...

den me,wh n yx peii aisyah go isabel's hse dere take uni...den after tat walked hme lo....

tmr going down wif jeffrey to support dem...jiayou!!!

sch mah...was quite ok....
after sch got swimming....after swimming went back sch wif cyn to see they all nid any help not...

sat outside the room...help dem polish boots....chit chat here n dere....yee xuan seems to b an expert in polishing boots wor...hmm....you qian tu....haha!! LOL....he has to iron his full uni again coz daniel say his uni very crumpled....i see him so kelian....so i brought his uni back to help him iron....he still nid to bring his boots back to polish lo....

haix....will tmr b a better day??!! hope so...=)

yee xuan emo??? he say tis pic look like zh wor...

yeexuan's jie zuo...

ben finding back his childhood??? haha!

today sch....ok ok lo....shall post abt sjab instead...=x

after sch got sjab.....today footdrill oni half n hr oni.....most of the activity was spent on first aid lecture...nxt week got first aid test....=) will i pass or will i fail???duno leh..=x and and and....ben hor...he did smth today...which made my hair stand lor....today during lecture...u noe wat he called me??....'shan shan....!!' omg....he's the first guy who called me tat lo!!=x....

games had community singing....the sec 2s were enthu but....the sec 1s hor....haix...jkjk..... played the wat 'captain' game....very fun la..!!

activity end le....wh suddenly ask me whether i want go cwp eat not...i asked tiff along but she dun want...so i ask yee xuan to peii wo...=) ben n sheng hao also got go.... when we reached cwp...den i realised i was tricked lor....!! oni until the entrance den i noe tat hazel n daniel also joining us lo!! i was like!! LOL....=x....*i sound very bad right...*

went to foodcourt....talked wif gavin while waiting for daniel n hazel....me yx n ben didnt eat...when they eating we were at the other table kip talking lame stuffs lo....=x....den we saw the sch canteen auntie...she came n asked us y we nvr eat...issit becoz we dun have money....she even said she want to treat us lo....=x

den we paiseh..kip saying dun want...den who noes she really go buy one plate of fruits for us lo....ty auntie!! den ben...sh n yx start eating the fruits lo...but i didnt eat....coz im freezing cold!!!.....me n yx kip taking photos lo...=x....

den we saw cuixia n his bf wor...she kip kajiao me lo...=.=....stayed there till 8++ going to 9 le...den we go home lo....walked home wif hazel n daniel....hazel walked halfway den cross the road le...den daniel peii wo walked till the park dere... den we say bye bye le...=)

at the foodcourt was fun la!! is just tat im feeling cold oni..haha....

today is just another sch day lor....shall skip the sch part....=.=....

after sch met up wif the guys n the sec 1s to discuss abt the deco board thingy...finally came up wif a theme le.....after the sec 1s go le...den we go buy things makan....den we go to our 'secret corner' dere chit chat....

we sang some community songs also....to get prepared for tmr de community singing....=x.....talked abt our sec 2 outing....at abt 4++ like tat went outside the room to wait for the meeting to start....

the meeting oni start at 4.30pm lor...but is worth the wait la....we were informed tat all sec 2s are in for the ndp wor....congrats guys!!!.....

wonder y they today so enthu lor....after the meeting they still went to do footdrill lo...do until 5.30 den go home...but i didnt do...i was tired....i just sat at the side n talk to yeexuan....took a video of them doing footdrill....shall upload it nxt time...=)

m i tat emo?? y everybody say me emo?? last two days got pple say me emo leh...ben n daniel...=.=.......duno leh....

ytd i admit tat im abit emo...c my previous den u noe le....

today nth much lo...woke up at abt 12pm++ like tat....sat around in the hse....used comp....did the chi project de reflection....now i got nth to do...sian diao la....

na n ac having national comp. tis sunday le....hope they can win something back!!! do urself n the sch proud!!

ben!! i noe u got read my blog de....b proud of ur first aid!! dun waste ur efforts!!u have been reading the manual for the week u noe!! hope u will get urself a big birthday gift tis year!! jiayou!! you can do it de!!!after national comp. we go celebrate ur b'day kk!!! wif tiffany also!!!....dun disappoint us n also urself!! believe in urself!! im sure u can do it de....

btw....na ac.....if need anything of help feel free to approach me kk??=) im willing to help de...=) haha!!

S O R R Y

it has been the word tat i had always wanted to say to you....

aiyo...yeexuan....y u so kpo??? =p

see....yekai promoting his hp wor....

'gangster' look leh....

wat u looking at???

today went down to hq to b casualty for na n ac.....
yekai,jeff n fizzy also got go down.....was having alot of fun as usual....hazel n gavin also got come down.....

was having so much fun...but i lazy to post leh...=x....want noe den come ask me lo....

on the way back on the train...took some pics.....later den i post bah...haha....
they all nxt sunday national comp. le...wish them good luck!!!

today stayed back after sch to b casualty....instructor gavin...hazel n daniel also got come down....when na doing homenursing....me...yahui..jeffrey..fizzy n yekai was playing outside the room la...so funny la...we also gt play 'dare or dare' or watever thing la...den when is my turn....i nid to pinch yeexuan's cheeks la....

den u noe wat...whenever i go near him he will b like keep hiding frm me lor....den his face will b like...LOL....so funny la.when i c his face, i was like keep laughing la...coz i can't stand his face...i laugh till stomachache...LOL

den b casualty for ac lo....den after they finished the last case...went into the room to chit chat wif daniel,hazel,jeffrey,sarina,tania,yekai,tiffany,cuiping n cynthia...had fun dere....

den at abt 6.30pm++ like tat...walked home....walked under the rain....wif tiffany n daniel....but we walked different directions after crossing the road la....haix...

after today..i suddenly rmb alot things happened in the past lor...feeling very sad now.....haix....

tmr going hq....

today is another sch day lor..lesson before recess was ok lor...den after recess was art...den rest of the 2 hrs...teacher nvr come...so slacked at the library....fell asleep dere....

time at the library seems to b so long can....finally is 1.30 le...went to sjab...met aisyah n shahidah for some stuffs...the whole thing was so funny la...was laughing all the way....

after tat got swimming...me,hanis,ellis,cuiping n cynthia was like rushing to RP can....we walked like duno wat...when we reached RP le...den we started to run like mad dogs n cat la...LOL....so funny.....

swimming was quite tired la...walked back to sch dere wif cuiping n ellis after swimming...but ellis went home...cuiping was doing hmwk while im eating my lunch.....

den ye kai n angie came....was talking lots of funny stuffs wif them la...so funny...LOL....den fizzy joined us....wh..yx n zhixian finished their meeting le den they cum join us....and and and....i kena pinch by yeexuan agn!!! 3 times somemore!!! the first time i got chase after him la....but after tat i got to pinch him back...=p.......when walking out of the sch...was still laughing alot...LOL.....i want to noe tat 'bubble tea' la....yeexuan tell me leh...=x......

woke up at 5am....prepare here n there den go meet tiffany at 5.45am like tat....we were the 1st one to reach sch wor...the sch was like so dark can...=.= lol....sjab day parade was alright...the good thing is tat no one fall out wor...=)

sch was ok lo....i felt abit boring lo...mayb is becoz im tired bah...my eyes were half open lo....=.=......after sch got activity...things got better during activity....my mood began to b better....=) footdrill was not so tough...compared to the previous trainings....which is gd for the rest bah....=) lecture was 2 hr++ if im not wrong bah...enjoyed it alot....=)

games time is the time when i enjoy the most....i was so 'high' during games lor...so was tiffany...haha...the game was really fun...'musical bench'.....n benjamin also danced solo wor...pole dance...so funny la...his face was so red lo....LOL...btw...i got to pinch benjamin's cheek during lecture...so funny la...

after activity...me, tiffany n cyn did something very 'touching' de wor...duno how the two of them think la...but tis was wat i thought la....=)

the two of us was still very enthu lo... we was like shouting 'sayonara' loudly in the canteen lo...lol...twice somemore...=x....den when walking out of sch..really had fun wif shenghao n ben...haha...=)

i tink i gtg le....i hardly open my eyes now....tmr still got swimming....*yawn*

argh!! i cried 4 times today....all becoz of sjab....haix...tis year...whenever i cry..it always becoz of sjab...wonder y.....m i........????i duno....

duno wat to say abt today...had sjab day training....haix....there's so many ups n downs today...which i dun wish to have these anymore....

gtg to prepare my full u le...tmr sjab day...gonna wear full u for the whole day wor....

gd luck everyone...hope tmr will b a better day....=)

i tot tat today shall b a better day...but who noes..it shattered at 8pm ++....i got to noe all sorts of bad news which i couldn't take it....but luckily wif the help of him...the problem is somehow solved?? at least im not so moody n depressed now...thanks!!!

just hope tat i will not receive any shocking news anymore...pray tat tmr will b a better day...=)

wish daniel all the best for his upcoming papers!!! btw...sorry to disturb u...=)

despite the fact tat i mentioned in my previous post tat im going to hq for both today n tmr.....im not going down tmr instead....=(

today was quite alright....was having fun wif all the sec 3s....n also...i had my revenge...=x...i got to pinched yeexuan's cheek....twice somemore...=p.....hehe...=x

on the way back on the train...almost everyone fell asleep...all were very tired......me myself also fallen asleep....=x.......im tired now....gotta bathe n mayb sleep bah....=) buaiix...

jieling is really very funny la...wat ai mei rang ren shou jing wei qu....=x...
but speaking the truth...i rather prefer the edited 1.....hahaha....kidding oni!!! dun take it to heart!! ....i noe jieling sure will laugh at me de lor...if not she will sure sabo me de!!! wahahaha!!

tmr n sunday going down to hq to help out wif tiffany....tis time is we volunteer de wor...haha....=) duno will it b as fun as last week...=) hope so....=) tink tmr they will do first aid....*i miss first aid lots....* haha...^_^ LOL

nw i duno wat to do wor....pple chat wif me!!! haha...=) im so enthu or rather 'high' nw.....all thanks to jieling!! haha.... c la...ur name appears in my post so many times....must thank me....=x.... i noe i bhb... (later next time i c her den i tio sabo.....dun bully her le....*scared* ) haha!!

these few days nvr post coz.....dun feel like posting....=.=

shall skip the past few days.....

today woke up at 12pm like tat....dun feel like doing anything leh....went on9 lor....just now chatted wif jieling....she very funny la...told me all sorts of things...abt....LOL.... chatting wif her was so fun la....always make me laugh de...=)

today not much thing lo...coz not much things lor...pple!! donate for me!! my walkathon card is so empty!!! haha!!

HAPPY FATHERS' DAY !! to papa n also..daddy!!! hahaha...

ytd midnight went downstairs to makan.....
den tis morning...woke up at abt 1pm++....sat ard at home...den afternoon at abt 5.30pm like tat went to ah yi hse....went there to makan...n also chit chat wif ah ma....uncle also got tell us some ghost stories wor...budden..i dun find it scary leh...=x....mayb i cold-blooded??? =x..... bleahs...

reached hme at abt 10pm++ like tat den come use comp. liao lor....
hmmm....national comp. is coming liao lor....n is on ben's b'day!!! haha....=.=....

gtg le...buaiix...=)

just nw went out wif my sis....took 963 to vivo....was so tired tat i actually fell asleep on the bus...n the bus was like so cold can~~~~ i was like freezing can!!!

bought some sweets n chocolates lor...walked ard....after tat took 963 back to cwp dere....bought a shirt for papa...den go home le....=x.....

i got nth to write le...im currently bored now....pple chat wif me leh...if not sms also can...im so bored....

boo!! just reached home half n hr ago.....=.=...

just now went to hq there to b casualty....went to woodlands control station dere at 7am....fizzy n jeffrey also got go....

on the train....had fun talking wif patricia...yeexuan...fizzy n sarina lo....then benjamin arh...emo gia....talk so little de...oni noe how to laugh...=p...

sat there n c them do footdrill oni....was drizzling when we reached there....whenever they go do footdrill hor...the rain will get heavier....wonder y...=x....during their break...talked abt many many things...they told us what would happened in the NCO course....they say until very funny la...=)....

btw...also saw adelard there....tink he still recognize me bah...=)smiled at him also...=)

is so fun talking wif the sec 3s la....all so funny de... den they go eat lunch lor...den i go home....coz later going out...=p.... when walking to the traffic light....yee xuan tried to pinched my cheeks AGN....but too bad....i pushed his hands away!! ahaha...den zhenghui bad lor...he also attempted to pinch my cheeks...but is was not successful...=x....but i tink he got to pinched a little bah....=x...bleah...dun care..nxt time i must try to pinch their cheeks...esp. tat yee xuan....revenge!! ahaha...kidding...=p

on the way back was so tired la...fell asleep on the train....*yawns*....reached woodlands le...go buy bubbletea den go home le....later going out wif sis...if not tired...tonight will post again bah...cya!!!

*n btw...yeexuan...tag me leh....u read my blog...but nvr tag...=.=....dun worry...i will get my revenge de...=x

before i forgot...HAPPY BIRTHDAY FIZZY!!!

today not much things lor...stayed at home most of the time....is just tat afternoon went to cwp to meet benjamin to pass him the name tags...which makes me go all the way down to lavender dere for the two of them.=x....no la..kidding oni....^_^

den go buy bubbletea den come hme le...used comp. le...den watch tv...did nth much....slacked at home the whole day....tmr morning going hq to b casualty for NA n AC.....7am mit at woodlands control station dere....sure will reminds me of many many things de....

shall post agn tmr bah...buaiix....sweet dreams....=)

just nw went to army market...to do name tag for tat 2 boys...=)....i took the train to marina bay den back to woodlands agn on the way back...*yawn*...i've actually fell asleep on the train...=x

~~tis part here is just to vent my anger...so dun take tis to heart..~~

u tink i enjoy calling to malaysia arh....y dun u try doing wat im suppose to do...im not the oni one who needs to call to malaysia everytime u noe....u just simply dun understand wat im always doing all this while...say wat distribute the jobs to everyone...do everything in sch den blah blah blah...wat i doing all those by myself...u tink wat...u just duno wat im thinking...if u were the one doing all these....u wun b saying all these things....issit so difficult for u accept what i've done all these while...after comp. also like tat..now leh...still the same...no one understand me....no one knows how i feel....u just simply dun support me in wat im doing in sjab......i dun wish to end up like peiying....after wat daniel told me wat happened to her last time....i really dun want....i really duno wat to do....im really helpless now....NO ONE UNDERSTANDS ME!!!

*yawn*.....woke up at 6.45am++ like tat despite the fact tat i slept at 2am ytd nite....=p

met tiffany downstairs den we walked to sch tgt for sjab....reached at abt 7.30am....we slowly changed at the toilet since there is still time...=x....we dilly dally changed into our uni....walked out...no sec 2s wor....we even tot tat sh n ben overslept...=x....today oni 9 pple came for sjab for sec 2s....i was the ic....ok lo...not much stuffs....

did drills....hormat was so funny la...kena 'slapped' a few times by yeexuan...=x....kidding oni..=x nxt thursday no nid go back sch for sjab le....cpr course also postponed....den when we were changing....in the toilet...n i got to know a very good news wor....shall not say it out here...=p.....

while changing...faclin told me tat sh n benjamin was looking for me wor....i tot they so gd...will wait for me...who noes is want me to help them to do name tag....=.=.....nvm la...i so gd...later going army market to help dem do name tag....=x....im kind-hearted....=p....

gtg le...mayb tonight come post agn bah...=)

today went out to do the chi project...abt 4++ reach woodlands...buy bubbletea le...den walked hme lor...who noe walked till the traffic light dere suddenly rain wor....in the end i got drenched lor....in front all wet...my back is like so dry can...haha....

the rain got heavier n heavier lor...got stucked at the void decks dere...wait lor....when is not so heavy le...den i slowly walk hme........

today not really interesting lor...suan le...i go prepare full u le...buaiix....

today not much things happen lor... woke up at abt 12++ like tat...went to sch to do the chi project lor...but end up didnt do much thing...=x....
went to see NA n AC they all training....

saw them doing footdrill....heard patricia's de command....really loud leh...got echo somemore...=x...*clap clap* haha... wh n zhenghui dey all kip talking using the 'malaysian chinese'....=p....got tat 'qiang' de...=x.....

haix....tmr actually free de...but coz of the st john day practice tis thursday...have to bring forward the chinese project thingy....tmr morning still nid to go out at 10++... argh!! my beauty sleep!! hahaha....jkjk....no la...precious sleep i mean...=x haha....

this thursday nid full u....later i go polish my boots...haha...=x bye..

~~sunday~~
ytd afternoon at abt 5++ like tat went to hospital wif mama to visit ah ma...stayed there for a while den leave le...went to jurong dere de popular...bought a few storybooks...also bought the cross stitch!! completed a small part of it oni...=) reach hme at abt 10++ lor....

~~today~~
woke up at abt 12++ like tat....continued wif the cross stitch....quite satisfied wif it...^_^.....den come on9 lor...heard tat NA n AC started their comp. trainings le....wish them gd luck!!!....

speaking of tat...i really missed trainings alot...n instructors too!! wahaha!=x...wait till nxt yr bah...haix....*i dun seems to b able to let go....

today...woke up at abt 1.30pm like tat...stayed at home did nth...slacked ard... just nw went to cwp to walk walk...alone...wanted to buy something de...but the designs there not nice...so nvr buy lor....

hmm...thinking of having nc gathering tis wednesday leh...duno the other nc free anot....n also daddy...nvm..later go ask ard...=)cya...=)

today went out at abt 10am++ to do the chinese project lor....shall skip this part....went to have lunch at cwp le...den took train down to orchard to meet tiffany....

den took train back to woodlands agn...lame right???=x....too bad...coz nth to do....on the train talked abt sjab stuffs again....talked abt last time those funny stuffs which happened during comp.....the doctor n robber thingy de...=x....n btw...in the morning, patricia called me to tell me abt the cpr course nxt sunday...im going wif tiffany n ben..........???? anybody else??

haha...the three of us again!!! i was asking tiffany what are the things we will b doing if we were to go for the course ytd lor...who knows today the news came...ahahaha!!! still not sure where the course will b held....but i no need to worry coz got tiffany going wif me...=) my best partner!!! ^_^

reached woodlands le..den we went sweetalk dere AGAIN!! ahaha....=x....after tat we walked home lor...on the way home..we saw 1 lady...de backview really look like hazel leh...the first time i c...i tot it was hazel lor...LOL.....=) n also got talked abt many many secrets....=x......

reached home le....used comp. a while...den i went out again...went shopping...=x.....bought a skirt n a bermuda...quite nice lor...but now im looking for tops now...=)....tink i post till here bah...buaiix...

just now on the way back frm orchard to woodlands...really reminds me of alot things...we talked abt many things....which brought me back alot of memories....i find it difficult to forget it....everything seems so precious....

i cant bear to let it go....i really nid to cherish it....it is really very precious....i just went to read tiffany's blog...the post which she posted after comp. de....i suddenly felt so sad la....=(

national comp. coming le...i noe it does not got to do wif me anymore........but no matter wat...tiffany n i will still support u all de...=)
NA n AC all the way!!! go go go!!!

cherish the present.....remember the past....it is worth it....u won't regret....memories are worthwhile...

just now went to watch "Men in White" wif tiffany n ben....or wat u call...."gui arh! gui arh!"

but at first took train to orchard to meet tiffany...den took train back to woodlands....on the way back...talked abt many things lah....n we also some sort of planning a surprise for 'erhem' la....cant wait for tat day to come...=)

n btw....we really got 'mo qi' or wat u called chemistry la....as wat mentioned by daddy last time lor...i remembered last time was wat "2nd degree burn???" =x...really funny la...

"我会去"....."我也会去"....."我们一起去!!"

wahahaha!!! den met ben at cwp...go buy tickets le...den walked ard....the movie was quite funny la...also quite lame...i could hear ben laughing in the middle of the show lor....LOL.....

the next movie i want to watch is....shrek?? any1 want to watch??? sms me yeah!!!

i really want nc gathering lah...but time dun allows...everybody like busy like tat leh....haix...nxt time bah.... *zi wo an wei*......=x

sometimes im thinking...wat would happen to me if all these things nvr happened...

what if i didnt joined sjab??
what if i didnt joined comp.???
what if i weren't the nc commander??
what if the team was left alone when nc is at the edge of breaking off??
what if there isnt any instructors to train us when nc was......???
what if i nvr got to know tiffany??
what if tiffany wasnt my sub-com to help me up??

if all these does not happened...i dun think dere would be the ME now....=(

Give me 1 'ha' ~~~~"HA!"
Give me 2 'ha'~~~~"HA! HA!"
Give me 3 'ha'~~~~" HA! HA! HA!"
Give me many many 'ha' ~~~~"HA HA HA HA HA!!!"

i noe is random....but all these suddenly came to my mind....mayb it is interesting bah...^_^
n i want to bring to the point tat...im not referring to any1....so dun b angry kk??=)

stay happy always!! b cheerful!!!....

ytd didnt post coz i lazy....=x...
on monday, went to sleep at 6.30pm like tat den woke up at 12am....den 1am went back to sleep...till 10am++...pro hor??
ytd stayed at home...didnt really do anything...slacked ard at home....

today also the same....today woke up at 2.30pm =x....*lazy pig me*....
used comp....lazy to do hmwk....bleah...=x...
btw...tmr going to watch "Man in White" wif tiffany n ben....any1 want to go???if want den sms me lor..=)

im finally back frm the camp!!! n i survived through it!! WOOhOO!!

~~friday~~
went to sch wif tiffany....was having a hard time carrying our stuffs to sch lor...=x ...was separated into different platoons....den blah blah....at night got sentry duty....my station was at the canteen dere...was quite ok lor..but before tat dere was fire drill lor....

~~saturday~~
the day was quite alright...is just tat we also got road march..walked frm to sch to vista park....n frm vista park to sch....den tat night no sentry duty but....we had fire drill early in the morning at 5am....

~~sunday~~
had public duty competition....i actually tied wif benjamin de...but in the end...i won!! 50/50!! wahahahaha=x....kidding oni...i got the best first aider for sec 2 batch...!!was so happy la....=) den at night got camp fire....alot of instructors n officers came down lor...i enjoyed the part when we had to dance round the camp fire lor!! is so fun la!!!! enjoyed it lot!!!

~~monday~~
finally last day of camp le...today basically was nothing much lor...was just cleaning up of stuffs....n did some area cleaning....but before we went home....dere was a prize giving ceremony...n i gotten 3 awards....=x.....best sec 2 first aider....best performer in campfire night...n last of all....the best female cadet!!!! was so happy la!!! benjamin also got the best male cadet!!! congrats!!
after tat stayed ard in the sch...coz we cant go home...due to the rain....gossiped ard...ate tidbits...n also had whatever 'du du bird' thingy....im 'du du bird no.1' yeah...=x LOL....

tink tats all bah...feeling very tired now...nid sleep...=x...will post agn if im not so tired later....

last of all....HAPPY BIRTHDAY INSTRUCTOR HAZEL!!!

camp will start in less than 2 hrs time...!!
it is the time to prove to seniors our ability!!!
all must JIAYOU kk!!! KAMPATEH!!!
SJAB camp!! here i come...!! wahahaha =p
miss me yeah!! i noe i bhb....=x

tmr camp le...
quite look forward to it...
hope it will not b too bad bah...
no matter wat....still must JIAYOU...
RSS SJAB pple!! jiayou for the camp...strive for the best!!


btw...will not b bringing hp for the camp...so tat means i'll not b able to reply any sms...hp would b turn off tmr at 12pm....ard dere la..=x.... so bye....hope i'll 'enjoy' the camp!!....ahahaha

just now tiffany came my hse...to do up the uniform for sei yi...coz she nvr go collect??? =.=...but nvm la...we make used of the time to chit chat also....=)

we talked abt many many things la...all so funny la...talked abt last time comp...our footdrill!! wOoHoo~~!!! =x....den we also got talked abt daddy....we actually talking abt all his good points lor...n i say tat y dun we try listing his bad points...=x....but surprisingly...we cnt thought of any...=x....

daddy...c la....u have leave us such a good impression on us la...now want to talk bad abt u...also so difficult...=x..=p im bad...=x
really lor...nothing comes to our mind when it comes to bad points abt u lor...=x....indeed u are such a nice daddy...=x....happy mah? =x...

just now went to woodlands checkpoint...Again??? LOL....did some last minute shopping for camp stuffs....just reached home....now i've finished buying all my camp stuffs le...oni left packing oni...wish me good luck for my camp bah...=)

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i just got to know smth....which makes me damn happy lah!!! wahahaha....=) hope tat it shall b good for me bah...=)

i really feel really helpless....
i really duno wat to do...
help me...
i seriously need help...
i duno wat would happen to me....
may god bless me....=.=
i really feel very tired...
helpless.....

decided not to post abt today...coz got nth to write abt...mayb tmr bah...buaiix...

haix...how i wish im still in 'wonderland' now...
coz im so confused n does not know where to go?
this or tat??
is my decision correct??
m i making the right choice??
will i regret after tat??

sometimes i would wish tat i do not have to make a decision....how i wish i would b free....free of troubles...problems...messy minds...omg!!!

how i wish dere is big open space in front me...wide grass field...or even the seaside... which i could pour out all my sorrows out...how i wish i could shout across....throwing out all my troubles which i have in my mind now....

m i thinking too much??? i always feels tat im ******......it really feels bad...=(

haix...let me see wat's up for me tis week bah...hope it will b a better one....

monday-----suzhou exchange interview,den go appointment wif mama
tuesday-----free??
wednesday---free bah...prepare stuffs for camp lor...
thursday-----packing of stuffs for camp...
friday to monday----sjab camp...hope it will not b a bad one....=)

tiffany n mine...=)

wo de...=)

thxs daddy for everything!! wahaha..

just now went to vista park wif tiffany...to meet daddy....i went there on my own 1st...i cycled dere...on my way there...i saw daddy walking home...i very bad la...called his hp n asked him turned back...=x.....

not long after tiffany reached...daddy also come le...he gave us both a wat u called tat... handphone strap arh??( i duno wat to call tat...paiseh..=x).... tiffany's one is pink de den mine is orange de...got our name on it de....tiffany de pink colour very sweet lah....=x....

den he say he got something on den he go 1st lor...den we both go climb up tat thing lor....i also got write alot of msgs on it...tis time he really need to climb up le..=x.... den stayed on top for a while...chit chat a bit....den too hot le tat we go void deck dere....

den at abt 1++ like tat...we saw dem walked off...we very bad leh...ka-chiau him again him agn...called his hp...but realised he took a long time to realised his phone was ringing wor...we were like laughing at him when he was searching for his hp lor...=x..... asked to turned back...but he say he didnt c us...=x....

den we cycle to cwp lor..oh yah...i forgotten abt something...when we are abt to leave vista park...we saw all those sec 3s senior...they all was like .." orh hor!!! orh hor!!!~~~~" LOL...me n tiffany was like so diao can...we quickly hop onto our bike n ride off le...very malu de u noe...=x...somemore they all were still in front of us can!!..=x...

i felt so lonely n helpless...

just now went to sun plaza to buy some things...got the things i want le...went to take the train...i could actually take the 962 bus home de...but wonder y...=.=

when the train reach admiralty dere...i was thinking tat shld i alight at admiralty or woodlands instead.....in the end i alighted at woodlands....went to cwp...walked round basement 1....decided to went home le.....walked hme instead of taking bus...

as i was walking...i felt so lonely...walked to vista park dere...wanted to go n c tat thing de...but in the end didnt...walked aimlessly along the road....just dun feel like going home...looked at my hp...7.30pm le...no choice...have to go home...if not very late le...haix...duno what's up on me...

how shld i describe my day leh???

woke up at abt 10.30am...used comp....use until 2pm ++ bah....then laid on the sofa...who noes i fell asleep wor...but in the end i woke up at 2.30pm..=x....

den 3.30pm like tat go find mama...den walked to sch for meet the parent session...results was ok lor....'quite' satisfied wif it... den took 911 to woodlands checkpoint dere...went there to buy camp stuffs...bought my shorts n track pants....den walked ard lor...went shopping at sheng shiong...den tiffany sms-ed me...ask her whether she lack of any camp stuffs not..in the end help her to buy black t-shirt n track pants lor...went back to the same shop twice...tat auntie gave me discount for the shirt n track pant lor...(tiffany...c u so lucky...can get a better price leh...=p ) also bought a shirt for papa also...

i just realised tat tiffany got alot of stuffs wif me now...=x...walkathon card...t-shirt...track pants....got anymore??i cant rmb le...=p...got to pass her all these stuffs to her on sunday since we are meeting each other...=) she also got help me buy some things lah...=)....thanks!!

btw...tiffany...rmb to remind me to bring tat shirt...=)

today was fun n tired bah.... =x..

ytd after activity le..went home...felt abit SICK....lie ard the house...feeling very restless....so went to sleep at abt 11pm ++ lor..
today woke up...still very tired...wasnt feeling very gd also...was having a slight runny nose...n i also some sort of lost my voice le..*erhem! erhem!*

walked to sch wif tiffany....lesson was so slack today...almost every period is free period lor....laid on the table...trying to catch some sleep...but couldn't....

after sch got swimming...went to 883 dere to buy things le den walked to republic poly lor..the weather was like so HOT can!!!...swimming was quite fun bah...not like wat i thought at first...=p....after tat walked back to sch wif juaen...went to st john rm to get the walkathon card for tiffany n myself...pple!! donate for me!!! hahaha....

after tat walked home lor...=x....duno wat to write le leh...=x....den i shall write 'BYE BYE' bah!!! buaiix...!!

im so tired now la...really feel like sleeping lah... *yawns*....

sch was ok lor...but quite boring...so dun want to talk abt it... =.=

after sch got activity...as per normal lor...but patricia fell down...coz she trying to call for me n tiffany...=x...paiseh ah...take care arh... lecture lecture lecture...footdrill footdrill footdrill....den games...quite fun lor...played ice n water...also did some community singing...was so 'high' wif tiffany lor.. =p...oh ya...instructor manan also got come down...but den after the lecture jiu nvr c her le...

walked hme wif jeffrey...talk talk....=x....reached hme at abt 7pm....so tired la...i was actually dragging my feet as im walking home lor...

tink i write till here bah...very tired le...buaiix...

today was really BAD for me can!!! felt so PATHETIC lah!!

morning was as usual...walked to sch wif tiffany n wl...reached the parade sq le...sat there quietly...didnt talked much...n im having a slight stomachache....it starts to worsen when we singing the national anthem lor...it is so terrible can!!! pain until i got no strength to say the pledge lah.... =(

lessons was ..... did nth in class...mostly is do filing lor...today sch was dismissed at 1.30pm coz gt CIP.... my mood wasn't very good during the CIP...n the weather is like so hot even though it rained earlier....CIP was at sembawang park or rather beach... went there not oni to pick litter...also got donate some blood...coz the mosquitoes dere was like...so many...???!!!

finally it was 5pm le...reached sch...take le bag den walked off le...walked home alone lor...listened to radio as im walking...really felt like crying lor...haix...felt really terrible...coz of........... =( walked till woodlands pri dere le...tiffany called me n asked me whether i want go cwp not....den i say ok lor...since there is also a 912 bus coming so i board the bus lor...

peii tiffany go cwp see shoe bags...coz she want buy...but in the end nvr buy la...took 900 home...when going to interchange...leen n huii called me lor..say wat they say me at cwp, sportslink dere.....den when i board the bus le they called me agn...ask me go cwp...i was like...huh??i on the bus le den u say...but suan le lah....i also feel very tired le...so say dun want lor...went home lor....

haix....feeling very wat lor....having a bad feeling now...how i wished i had a listening ear n a shoulder for me to lean on now...really feel very tired now...haix....=.=

today was alright?? LOL...
ytd nite talked on the fone wif huii frm 12.30am all the way till 2.30am lor...pro right...LOL...=x...therefore i had to sacrificed my 2 hrs of precious sleep??!! LOL...i noe huii will sure kill me if she read these de...=x....

this morning walked to sch as usual lor...tiffany as usual waited for me under my block but today also got wei loke...then i tell my mama...'today got 2 person waiting for me leh...=x'...LOL... then walked to sch lor...but hor...walked till woodlands pri there hor...saw jenny...she was carrying her maths file wor...den i suddenly remembered tat i forgotten to bring mine...how?? went back hme lor...=x...

called er jie help me bring my files to downstairs...(thxs!!) she also gave me $$ to take taxi to sch...coz she scared i late...haha...but i didnt la..=)

today sch almost all is free period lor...cher nvr teach anything...assembly got external performance..guitar de...quite ok lor...=)

after sch went to learn how to do field cooking...half n hour oni...went to eat wif tiffany...but she didnt eat...after i went off 1st coz i meeting my mama....went out to handle some stuffs...

on the way back home on the mrt...received daddy de sms...he asked me whether i need poncho not...coz tiffany told him i dun have..( thanks tiffany!! u are indeed my best fren!! ^_^ ) thxs daddy also!!! =)

reached woodlands le...go pasar malam walk walk wif mama a while...den walked home lor...n here m i posting....=) i noe i very 'lor so' LOL... but too bad...im too bored...n lonely coz no one to chat wif...therefore i typed such a long post so as not to waste my time bah...=)

sayonara!!

my 100th post!!! thxs to me updating my blog almost everyday bah..=p....i noe i bhb....

today basically did nth lor...woke up at ard 12.30pm++...=x....den sms-ed wif tiffany n ben....till 1pm...den talked on the fone wif tiffany till 1.30pm...for ur info...i was still lying on bed when doing all these stuffs...tis shows im not totally awake yet...=x...wahaha...LOL...

ate...watched tv....polished my boots??? coz i got nth to do....=p...nw my boots r shiny le...yeah!! =x thinking of whether shld i go tat place later leh?? consider later bah...see who want to acc me 1st...=p...

btw...HAPPY BIRTHDAY JEFFREY!! stay cheerful always!!! =)

just came back frm cwp wif my sis...reach hme at abt 8pm ++...

went cwp at abt 5pm++ like tat...went there to buy swimming stuffs...n abit of camp stuffs lor...went to kiddy palace to choose the swimming costume...den walked around...bought things here n there...went to mini toons to buy some b'day gift also...

sis went for massage as result i was left alone to walk ard cwp...walked frm the 1st floor up till the 5th floor n down to basement...sian right??bought bubble tea also.... den after went to eat at Burger King...after tat took bus home lor...

actually at 1pm++ ...huii wanted to jio me out de...go cwp slack wif her...but im too sian... so nvr go... (paiseh...) but im too kind to talk on the phone wif huii for almost 1 hr...=p LOL....

tmr is jeffrey's b'day....HAPPY 'ADVANCE' B'DAY JEFFREY!!! lol...

tink i post till here bah...gtg le..buaiix...sayonara!! ;)

today is a sad n disappointing day for me...
got back all the papers...though i didnt fail any subjects...but the marks is really very bad... the marks is all borderline 1 lor......

english...really very pathetic....guess how much i scored for my english compre?? pathetic 6/25!!! omg!! how to survive like tat?? for english both paper 1 n 2 la...51.8/100 u noe!! pathetic la...passed by tat 1.8 marks...haix...duno wat to do wif my english...

chinese....61.6/100......tis one is converted to 100% de la...actually total marks is 180 de...den i got 111...=.=

science...the paper which im satisfied wif...75/100...

geo...62.8...didnt really do well...

maths... 73/100...

history...58.3...

literature...58

all the marks here is oni based on the mid-year paper...converted to 100% de...haix... all my marks is all borderline de lor...need to kampateh le...haix...

haix...pathetic...=.= tink later if got anything den i post again lor...if not...sayonara!!

BoOhOo!!
i gt nth to do so i come post again lor...but i gt nth to post abt....haix...

oh yah...tmr get back all the papers le...omg...tink i will do very badly lor...im worried abt my english paper...english fail jiu si ding le...OMG...god bless me bah...=x

pple wish me gd luck!! i really want to do well tis MYE...i want to do better den last term!!! last term de results arh...haix...no face to talk abt..=.=....

i really wish to do WELL this time...i dun want to disappoint pple who is concerned abt me le.....esp...daddy...i alrdy disappointed him once le...which made me cried really badly last time...hope the best of luck is wif me...=)

tis morning hor...when going to sch hor...i saw something very scary leh...which really scared me...guess who?? is TIFFANY!!!....she was waiting for me under my block mah...then when i walked out wif my mother...the 1st reaction we had was like scared tio..coz tiffany was like standing in front of us...n somemore she let down her hair...her hair was like covering her face n i couldn't c her face!! LOL....

we also got talked a little bit abt comp...n we also say abt we all crying on tat day...we say tat tiffany is like a tap...rather a spoiled one...once it is turned on....the water will keep flowing out de...cnt stop de...fix also no use de...=x...then me leh...turned on le...water will flowing out...but after a long time will b fixed le...LOL...

i noe tiffany gonna kill me if she reads this...but i still want to post leh...=x...im bad...=p.....

just now i watch the 9pm show mah...got one scene..tat wenjing divorced le mah...then the children crying for their mother n they all crying very badly leh...surprisingly...tears dropped down frm my eyes leh...it's so touching can...

nowadays i found out hor...i want cry also very difficult leh...crying can really help to fa xie lor....after when we go cwp...we walked along the walkway to cwp mah...den beside got a big field mah...we really feel like shouting across it lor...pour all the sorrows out...but in the end we didnt...=p.... nxt time must really find a place which we can do tat de...=)

now den i realised my post is long dao~~~=p

*i finally got to buy tat grape sweet le... yipee!!

today was......how shld i describe leh?? nvm suan le...=p...

today lessons before recess was slacking lor...did nth at all...den after recess is geo...did filling...den dnt...quite ok lor....lastly is CD...is SIAN de lor!!!...
after sch went to cwp wif tiffany....went to choose prezzie for jeff... n realised tat choosing a gift for a guy isn't easy!!!=p... then we go giordano choose clothes lor...end up we bought 3 t-shirts lor!! LOL....wondering y we buy 3 shirts rite?? haix...long story...=x wahahaha...!!!

tink tiffany has made her choice le....is up to her lor...as long she's happy den gd for her lor..=) gd luck!!

im currently enjoying my hershey's cookies n cream chocolate...n also typing tis post... tats y im typing really slow...coz i oni using one 1 hand to type...=p buaiix!!

hershey's chocolate!! yum yum!! =) cookies n cream!!
i noe is random...=p

finally!! blogger is back to normal...

today no activity...tats y i can blog at this point of time...no activity...shld i b happy or sad?? i duno...=x

today sch was okok lor...sci...did nth...then pe.... den is recess...went to eat coz im hungry...=p...
after tat is eng lor...mdm chang asked us to do grammar...finished le..sit down there did nth...jazz la...took our specs...n wear..it turns out he's wearing 4 specs at one time...funny la...=p ahaha....he also kip scaring me when i bu zhu yi de shi hou...so bad la him...kip getting shock....not tat 'shock' la...=x..at least i still can talk...=p....

finally sch end le...walked hme lor...
bathed...slept a while... for 15 mins oni...woke up by papa...cua tio leh...=p....ate...n here m i posting... *yawn*...later still nid go find mama...=) i guai bah..=x...i noe i bhb...=x

i tink i post till here bah...if got anything later den i post...=) sayonara!

hiya....
today was ok lor...is just tat the HEAVY rain in the morning dampen my mood oni...
tired as usual...slept during maths lesson=x.... coz cher nvr teach anything...we r free to do our own things...so i sleep lor... =p
then after sch went cwp to eat wif huii n leen...after tat bought sweets le...went back to sch coz got oral....

i tink i screwed up my oral conversation lor...got nth to talk abt!!! my mind was in a blank at tat very moment...when the cher ask me question..i was like ..." erm...", "ok..." or "then" lor...omg...n i also dun tink i will do well for the reading of the passage lor...20% of end of year lor!! die liao lah...how how??

oral end at abt 5pm++ lor...walked hme as usual...alone agn...=x...
bathed le...watch abit tv....then use comp lor...if not also nth to do...very sian u noe.... =.=

tmr shall b a better day bah...=) anyone got listen to radio ytd nite?? 933 de... duno they gt read my sms not...if got ...pple out there tell me kk?? thxs guys!! =) Luv ya!!

today mah...quite sian lor...
dun want to tok abt sch...is like so sian can..
mrs pang leaving us after today le...shld i b sad or happy?? =x...
then after sch walked home alone...

tiffany seems troubled...haix...want to help her but duno how...trying all sorts of ways to make her happy...but...haix...aiyah...i can understand how she feel...coz.......haix...

ytd oni fell asleep at 2am++..n i need to wake up at 6.30am....omg..think i later will take a nap bah...
wonder y these few days i cant slp...
as for saturday night bah...i went to bed at abt 1am++ but i oni fell asleep at abt 4am...it has been the same last weekend!!

lying on the bed...thinking of all sort of stuffs...i just couldnt slp...i tell myself not to think too much le...but i just cant..though im feeling very tired le..but i just couldnt slp...haix...sleepless nights...
sumtimes tears will even flow out frm my eyes if i thought of certain things...really...for example XXX n YYY.... oni sum pple will noe wat does it mean...haix...

1st....Happy mOthers' dAy to mummy.....

today woke up at 12.30pm++ like tt...coz im lazy..=x..went to bed ytd nite at abt 1am++ but cant slp...fell asleep oni at abt 4am+++..=xxx

papa cooked chicken rice...yumyum...=p..then slacked ard...4pm+ like tt went cwp wif sis...shopped ard...blah blah then walked hme....

reached hme le...was lei dao.... then slept for 2 hrs ++ then here m i posting..haix...

*sigh* me n tiffany is having the same problems nw....but nvm... we must face it together ok??must b strong..ok...jiayou!! NC no.1 n no.2 kampateh!!

im so bored tat im here to post agn...
n also not forgetting to say....
HAPPY B'DAY TO PEITING!!

sian...didnt get to went out today....instead i slept whole day long at home...exams finished alrdy 2 days liao lor...n i didnt get to enjoy...haix....

im so sian at home la...no one acc me go out...=x...tiffany went to malaysia le... no one peii wo sms le...=x...
hope later can go out bah...=x

post later...

today was so sian~~~ lor... exams finish le still nid go sch!! today oni sec 2s lesson as usual lor!! omg!! tats y the sch was like so quiet after sch lor...LOL...
today lesson all free period...cher didnt teach anything...during english...i was like so tired can..i fall asleep can~~...i slept all the way till lesson end...=x then sci went itrr...then went to eat...finally home sweet home!!!

im so sian la...no one at home...also no where to go...no one peii wo... somemore im also broke...=x...pple sponsor me!! wahahaha...im bad...=p

gd luck pple..!!

just now had last paper....n exams is finally over...but i dun feel happy at all...i wonder y..... after the paper went to canteen wif huii n leen... while walking frm classroom to canteen...i didnt smile at all...i dun seems happy abt it...sat in the canteen for abt half n hr...didnt eat...no appetitie....didnt drink also....haix...wasnt in a gd mood...( sry huii n leen...paiseh if i dampen ur mood also...)

was listening to radio while sitting in the canteen...was hoping tt my mood will get better..but it didnt...i was really tired...i finished my paper at 9am...(the paper starts at 8.15...) n i slept all the way till the end....wonder y..=(

walked out of the sch...walked till the cc there...we went separate ways..i walked hme..lonely...


我真的很累。。。好想好好地休息一下。。。想出去轻松一下，但却不知道去那里。。。

刚才睡了一觉，感觉清醒 多了。想事情也比较清楚了，我已经下定决心，放开一切，把不开心，烦恼的事，全都抛开，全部忘记。重新开始，不再为不开心的事胡思乱想，我一定要为更美好的明天做好准备。但这一切都需要时间，希望时间能淡化一些事。。。加油！！ 你能做到的！

现在的我真的很苦恼。。。不知道应该怎么办。。。我到底应不应该放手呢? 如果我真的这么做的话，对我来说可能是一种心灵上的一种解脱，不用为
这些事伤心，但是以我的性格，一定会依依不舍，很不舍的。反而还会更加烦恼。。。
*叹气*。。。 看来我还是得放手，这样一来可能会比较好。。。希望时间能化解一切事情。。明天会更好。=)

im home...finally...=)
today had history paper...ok ok lor...if really can pass..oni just pass oni lor...sian...=.=...
tmr literature paper...no hope on tat....=p.....
at least tmr is the last paper le!!! finish le then can play le!! wooHOO!! =p...
gt nth to write le leh....if can later then i post agn lor...=)

today had maths paper lor...paper 1 was alright...then paper 2...didnt really have confidence in paper 2....haix...=.=
paper at 12 pm++ de...after the paper was having a headache lor...stomach cramps also....haix...initially going to cwp wif huii n leen to have lunch de..but on the way to cwp...didnt feel really well...decided to go home instead...

feeling really terrible while walking hme... headache n cramps were killing me!!! omg... reached hme, bathed..feel abit better le... ate.... n here im posting...

tmr history paper...wish me gd luck bah...tink later take nap le then study coz im really tired...n i tink im falling sick soon... haix..

i has been falling sick too often tis year haix....

*yawns*..the geo paper was 'ok' lor...got some qn duno how to do...=.=
then after tat went to itrr to do maths... blah.....
then went hme...slept..*yawn* tats y im so tired nw...haix.... tmr maths paper...later go study a while....haix...wish me gd luck!!=)

just reached hme....just now went to library wif huii to study...managed to read 2 chapters yeah.... then went to her hse lor...then blah blah blah...after tat went to 678 there to photocopy stuffs...n guess who i saw there...instructor peiying!!! surprise seh...but she didnt c me la...=x... LOL.... n i has been sneezing all day long...wonder who is missing or even cursing me??!! who noes? =p

i noe tis post is very short coz i nid to go n study le...good luck to me for my geo paper tmr!!!

friday..

had sci paper..was ok lor...not as difficult as wat i had thought.... then after the paper...went to cwp wif huii for half n hr oni... coz got nth to do there..went hme...slept...did nth...im so sian can....no one acc me go out...im basically rotting at hme lah...fungi start to grow le...

saturday

did nth at hme...coz got nth to do...actually got la...wrote somethings...pple may find me very silly writing those things de...shall not say it here... wan know cum ask me lor...give u a clue la...smth tat will let me cry abt it de.....=)

today was ........ for me lor.... sian....
today had chinese paper...paper 1 mah...still can handle lor...then paper 2 quite ok lor... went home straight after the paper...which ends at 12.30....n reached hme at abt 1 pm++...as usual...walked hme alone...and it was also raining lor...haiz...even the sky is also crying for me..... n it is getting heavier n heavier!!..so pathetic. came hme..online...browse through blogs...chatted wif daddy a while...then later he got lesson then he go lor...soon after tat i also went offline le...went to continue wif my sci notes...haix...tmr sci paper!! dun tink it will b a good day for me tmr....haix!!!

ate my lunch le...continue wif notes lor...actually wanted to listen to songs when doing my notes de...who knows i fell asleep lor...i was lying in the living room sleeping frm 3.30 to 5.30 lor...and somemore outside was still raining lor...n it was cold dao~~~..... brrr~~~

almost going to finish my sci notes le..after tat going to read workbook all those stuffs lor...memorise blah blah blah.... should i burn midnight oil?? or shld i "drive night car"??? i noe sum1 will laugh at me de....=x
i tink i shouldnt...coz i will surely fall asleep!! wahahaha....

hope i can do well this mye bah...as tis is one of my b'day wishes...hope it will come true...i still other wishes...hope it will also come true...but it will need the help of sum pple!!!

i tink i shld go le...wish me gd luck for my sci paper!! argh!*i got no confidence at all!! omg!*....

i miss NC!!! I noe is random...but is deep frm my heart... =)

*yawns*....

i noe i shouldn't b here now as mye is on...but i feel so sian can...actually didnt want to update my blog de...but i dun want it to die...just like wat happened last time...i want to keep it alive!!! .....i noe im lame... haix... im so down now can...sum1 enthu me la....

tiffany dun seems to b right these few days...she also dun want to tell me wat happened...how?? how shld i help her??

daddy!! help me.... the bad feeling seems to come back again!!??wat shld i do?? im feeling so terrible now.... omg!! mayb i shouldn't ma fan him so much now...he got his own things to settle btw...=)...i must b a gd daughter....=)

haix...things hasn't been right for me these few days..but wat can i do?? feeling so helpless now... forget it...just hope that there's a miracle bah....=.=....

tink i shld go back to do my science notes now...but im too tired to do tat...omg... i need moral support!!!

SHAN!! YOU CAN DO IT DE!!!